The Berry Story

I told him when we were strolling out of Aeon that day, that I was out of cranberries stock.

No you’re not, he answered confidently.

I repeated my statement, firmly, told him I ate them all in the office when he assumed that I must’ve thrown them away.

Back at home, he found a pack of blueberries inside the refrigerator, showed them to me and told me I was lying about finishing the berries.

I laughed instantly. I said “Cranberries, not blueberries”

So yeah, communication is key.

What The Boss Said

My ex-boss once told me that I underestimated myself. Well, you know what, boss, that’s not news eheh. I’ve been living my whole life doing that, I guess. I wish I could change that part of me, but again and again I’m back at that place where I doubt myself, look down on me and underestimate myself. I know, I’m actually my biggest bully.. sobs.

I consider myself a ‘damaged soul’, which according to my husband, it would take a developed-country-psychiatric to figure me out. And as twisted as my mind can be, I do take that as a compliment, haha. But anyways, I think bits by bits I’m trying to recover. Sometimes I managed, sometimes I didn’t. But all in all, I grew, I guess.

Salon

Dah lama tak ke salon rambut. The truth is, I always feel uneasy about the idea of going to all sorts of beauty care, be it spa, hair salon and whatnot. The main reason is because of my low self-esteem, so I don’t like it when people go highlighting all of my flaws that I am already full aware of. Which leads to the second reason - due to the ‘defects’ it would be so easy for the masseuse or hairsylist to promote their services/products. Which annoyed me like hell. Argghh. 

Weekend lepas sempat curi masa kejap pergi potong rambut, and as I expected, yang potong rambut tu ‘analyzed’ my hair and promoted lah segala mala  service/product yang diorang ada. No surprise there. Tapi tak tahan mendengarkan the prices. Semua harga RM300 and above. Selamba je bagitahu harga sekian sekian macam benda tu perkara biasa. Haha. Memang tak lah nak ambik pakej treatment seribu lebih tu.

Rasanya kalau beli produk bodyshop dan buat semua sendiri okay kot. I mean untuk rakyat marhaen macam aku. Okaylah, tu je nak bebel.

Aging Factor

Entah kenapa hari ni tersentap pulak dengan statement pasal orang tua-orang muda ni. Mungkin faktor usia, eheh.

Yang sebetulnya aku selalu ada kerisauan bab-bab dressing, sebab aku mostly masih stick to the same old dressing style like when I was in my early 20’s. Masih pakai jeans, tshirt, sneakers, and my bags collection pun masih sama style macam zaman study dulu. Haha, bila taip ni rasa macam selekehnya lah makcik ni. Berbalik isu risau tadi - risau takut nampak macam orang tua tak sedar diri dressing macam budak-budak. Gitu. Tapi selalunya aku sedapkan hati, asalkan tutup aurat dan kita sendiri selesa dalam pakaian tu, lantaklah apa orang nak kata kan?

Isu sentap tadi ada kaitan dengan perihal dressing ni. Tapi contradicted sungguh dengan kerisauan aku selama ni. Aku malas nak taip panjang-panjang pasal tu, cuma nak point out the point yang aku boleh pulak ‘tersentap’ dengan statement orang pasal ‘dressing orang muda-orang tua’. 

Nampak sangat makcik dah tua, dah cepat sentap. Haishhh..

Okay, tak de point sungguh post ni, makcik saja nak membebel (in a subtle way-lah konon). Sekian bebelan.

The Forsaken

I care too much

about you

about them

about everyone

about everything

else, but me

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**malas pulak nak pi cari dan tepek disclaimer 😅

175cm

Tinggi gila 175cm. Haha, tiba-tiba sungguh.

Yelah, banyak model-model ni tingginya 175cm, memperagakan clothing yang bersaiz S. Maka aku tertanya-tanya, aku yang kurang ketinggian ni nak beli saiz apa? Adehla.

Maka aku pun sedar diri dan tak jenguk dah baju-baju berukuran model-model tu.

The Media Social in Dark Blue

I activated my Facebook recently, stayed active for a while - added a few new friends and even posted a “What’s On Your Mind” thing (why don’t I just say ‘post a status’ 🙄), and owh, not to mention all the stalking to ‘catch up’ and ‘keep up’ with.

*sigh. Spent Wasted such a good time there.

So, I guess it really is not for me anymore. I’m better off without it.