So Called The Restless Mind

Masa tengok instagram TheBodyShop pasal achievement mereka coordinate program pembersihan pantai sepanjang  lebih 1600km, aku pun ceritalah pasal tu kat husband. Lepas tu aku bermonologlah sorang-sorang pasal isu alam sekitar.

“Nanti akan datang, manusia semua akan makan synthetic food je”
“Ikan mesti dah tak ada nanti”
“Nak bertanam pun, entah-entah soil tu semua dah terkena radiasi”
“Blablabla”

And my husband turned his head to me:
“Serius ke awak fikir semua masalah tu?”

Oh yes, indeed I am. Masalah negara, masalah dunia semua aku fikir. No wonder I have grey hairs already. And hence the hasgtag #thoughtsofmyrestlessmind

Baju Raya 2019

So it’s that time of the year again. (Or is it actually still too early?😂)

I went through a few IGs for their Raya collection, only to be disappointed with this year’s collection. Okay, I am obviously no fashionita, I just want a decent classic kebarung riau. Is that too much to ask?

Haha. Tu pun nak emo. It’s fine. Nanti pergi cari dekat Angsana or Galleria (kalau rajin). And owh, selamat mengganti puasa for those who are still struggling to ganti.. 💪🏽💪🏽

The Ignorance

I choose to ignore,

not because I dont want to heal;

But dealing with it

would be more painful than the pain itself.

The Trump-ism

Rasanya ramai antara kita yang tak suka pakcik Trump. 

But let’s get real. Most of us are acting no different than him these days. Malas nak taip panjang- panjang. Not that it would make any difference pun. 

Spread Love, Not Hate

I don’t understand what I’m hearing these days. I don’t understand, especially when it comes from the person who should be promoting how wonderful Islam is. 

Why are we inculcating hate among us? Why are we using hate as a weapon to win people? What good does it ever do?

We are born different for some reason. And I’m pretty sure that reason is NOT to hate each other. Don’t you think so?

Of Slavery

Semalam hati gundah-gulana, for no reason. So I opted to listen to ever-soothing voice, Ustazah Yasmin Mogahed. Aku dengar random je dekat youtube, not specified any topic. Lepas tu terdengar satu ayat ni:

“Be very very careful what you love most because you’ll become a slave to it”

Dan, macam mana cara nak tahu apa benda yang matter to us the most? Find out what constantly is on our mind, even masa solat. 

It sort of ‘stabbed’ my heart. Aku tau dah apa yang aku kisahkan sangat dalam dunia ni 😔

Tulah jadinya - gundah gulana memanjang bila hati tak diisi sepenuhnya dengan Allah.

Some Battlefield

All that there is to feel

in this battlefield

is loneliness;

Not having a side to pick,

it feels exactly like homeless.

Not having a place to stay,

it feels exactly like no friends.

Even the feelings feel out of sides;

  out of places.

There’s no home in a battlefield;
there’s no friends in a battlefield.

And the worst part is,
that this is not even my battle;

but here I am,
stuck,
and alone in this chaos.

Disclaimer: All poems may be or may not be from my own experience. Some are merely from observations. Just chill, don't speculate. I’m just trying to be ‘creative’ here 😝😝 ✌🏽