Friday, September 22, 2017

Not The One

Not The One

I wanted you to hear me
to see me
to value me
to adore me


but I understand now


Even if I write the saddest song
it will never get to your heart
because I am not the one you hear

I could pass you by everyday
but you will never look at me
because I am not the one you see

I could heal your wound
but you will never mind me
because I am not the one you value

I could be by your side
for the rest of eternity
but I will never make you laugh
because I am not the one you adore

I understand that now
and it's not your fault
and it's not me, either


I understand
I am not the one
and that's why I don't matter.




Disclaimer: All poems may be or may not be from my own experience. Some are merely from observationsJust chill, don't speculate 😝😝

Thursday, September 21, 2017

Making Peace with Those Who Forget

There are certain people in our life that we would do and sacrifice anything as long as they are okay. 

But sadly, for some reason, eventually, they just forget. Or leave.

As much as we want them to stay, we just have to learn to let go. Because no matter how hard we try, some people aren't meant to stay. If it's not by choice, it would be by fate. 

But it doesn't have to be a bad thing. All you have to tell yourself, that all of the hardships and sacrifices that you were willing to undergo with/for them meant something. That you were a good person. That you were capable of putting aside your own comfort for other's sake. That you were a strong person. someone with the heart of gold.

So don't regret it. As for the people who forgot about it, and forgot about you,  then, obviously it's their loss, for not wanting to be around someone who is selfless, who's willing to undergo storms with/for them.

After all, it's not your fault that people change. You can still be that good person you once were by making peace with that fact. And then, move on. And continue making this world a little better for everyone else around you.

Wednesday, September 20, 2017

Small Job vs Small Man

"There is no small job, only small man"

Tak dapat nak letak kredit sebab tak tahu siapa punya quote ni.

Peringatan untuk diri sendiri sebab selalu lost passion in my jobs sebab aku ended up fikir kerja aku tak penting, tak ada value dsb. And that thoughts surely will lead to de-motivation.

Jadi quote tu memang kena la setepek dengan muka aku. What a small person I am. 

So hopefully I would be able to reset my mind. Even if my job doesn't seem to have direct contribution to society in specific (like doctors), but then again, there is no small job. Every job is important. 

Tuesday, September 19, 2017

This Screwed-Up society

Al-fatihah untuk semua mangsa dan keluarga mangsa kebakaran Pusat Tahfiz Darul Quran Ittifaqiyah. Dan untuk kita yang lain juga, semoga kita semua mampu mencari penawar untuk masyarakat yang sudah terbukti sakit tenat. 

Ada banyak benda daripada keseluruhan peristiwa ni yang tak mampu dihadamkan oleh akal. 

From the day one of the news. Pasal video yang direkod semasa kejadian, masa anak-anak tu cuba selamatkan diri. I couldn't bring myself to watch it, I hope it's not true. Because if it is, I cannot imagine what a steel-hearted the person who's recording it is. I mean, takkanlah sanggup rekod sementara melihat tangan-tangan mintak tolong tu? Walaupun mungkin tak ada apa yang boleh dibuat untuk tolong but still, recording a video? 

And then - the obsession of our society to spread out info/news yang belum tentu betul atau tidak. 

And as for the kids who were involved with the crime, I don't want to write about that.  It's beyond insanity.

The blaming game will not do any good now.

It all goes back to the core of the human beings. If it is not HUMANITY, then what are we now? 

Monday, September 18, 2017

Macam Belangkas

Ni bukan macam belangkas. Ini memang belangkas. Hehe.


Pakcik yang tangkap ni nak bagi free je belangkas ni, tapi iols tak pandai nak buang racun dia tu maka tak ambik lah. Kalau dia bagi yang dah masak, memang terus ambik.

Yang saiz besar tu betina, yang kecik jantan. Dan aku baru tahu nama dia in English - Horseshoe Crab. Comel betul nama dia.

Okay dah, sekian pelajaran Biologi Marin hari ini.

Sunday, September 17, 2017

Tips Masakan Tahan Lama

These tips I got from observations and also conversations with the elderly. So let me summarize in one article.

Tahan lama tu bukanlah maksudnya tahan berminggu-minggu macam tu. Maksudnya bolehlah tahan semalaman tanpa dimasukkan dalam fridge. Gitu.

1. Untuk nasi, basuh beras bersih-bersih sampai air warna putih. Selain nasi jadi tahan lama, arwah tok saudara  aku pernah bagitahu ni tips dia untuk awet muda. Tapi serius, arwah memang awet muda.

2. Masa nak serve makanan tu, make sure semua bekas-bekas tu betul-betul kering sebelum letak makanan dalam tu.

3. Lepas masak jangan terus tutup kuali/periuk. Bagi asap-asap tu reda dulu ehehe. Maaflah, tak reti nak buat ayat macam mana 😬

4. Tumis bahan-bahan kisar (contoh: bawang putih, halia, bawang merah, cili boh) lama sikit.

5. Jangan campur-campur senduk.

Tu je yang teringat buat masa ni. Tadi rasa-rasa macam banyak, rupanya lima je ke?  😂😂😂 Tengoklah, kalau ada lagi nanti aku tambah lagi.

Thursday, September 14, 2017

Colors of Me



I am black and white

and you, 
are the colors to my life.





Pic: Nikon D90 and photoshopped.

Disclaimer: All poems may be or may not be from my own experience. Some are merely from observationsJust chill, don't speculate 😝😝