Friday, May 25, 2018

How About

How about
   running carefreely when time freezes?
And how about
    standing still in the middle of chaos?


How about
     beating the odds
   and coming through stronger, anyway?

How about that?

Wednesday, May 23, 2018

Puasa: The Challenge

This year’s puasa hasn’t been easy for me. My perut didn’t go easy on me so far. Aku try and error je what to take during sahur. So far, fresh milk+ ESP and dates. But didn’t really seem to work. Jadi rasanya kena cut back fresh milk kot ni. Kadang-kadang fresh milk is okay, but for these few days, it was not, entahlah..

But, thank God for Gaviscon.

Lepas ni kena makan oat baliklah nampak gaya for sahur. Hopefully okay. Nak kena variasikan cara makan oat tu jelah. 

Tuesday, May 22, 2018

1998 - 2018

I think I just have to document this. I don't exactly know why, but DSAI's release seems like an important thing to remember.

It all started in 1998 - when he was sacked - I was already pro-Anwar. I started adding alphabet H at the end of my name, bersempena nama anak beliau, Nurul Izzah. To be exact, aku eja nama aku macam ni - Izza(h). Haha, kengkonon, either way, Izza or Izzah. Pernah terlintas jugak dalam fikiran masa tu, mungkin bakal suami nanti orang yang nama start dengan huruf H kot. In hindsight, it actually made sense, haha.

Dan seingat aku lagi, mak pernah bagitau that Mak Abah named me after Anwar Ibrahim's daughter,  who is 2 years older than me, so it made sense. Mungkin Mak Abah memang dah follow Anwar Ibrahim dah zaman tu.

Teringat malam-malam lepas prep duk bersembang hal politik dengan dormmates. Masa tu internet was scarce, tak di hujung jari macam sekarang. Dan bukan semua orang ada line Internet dekat rumah.  Maka we based on hardcopy reading materials, newspaper from both government and opposition sides, lepas tu ada lah flyers and brcohures. And the fact that one of the girls in my batch is related to Anwar Ibrahim. 

Semangat reformasi masa tu memang lain macam, haha. Tapi aku tak pernahlah join mana-mana demonstrasi Reformasi masa tu. Ada satu malam, lepas habis prep malam, masa nak balik hostel, ada ramai FRU dalam school compund, tapi dah tak ingat kenapa. Mungkin ada demonstrasi kat PWTC kot. Cuaklah perasaan masa tu. But nothing bad happened.

Masa matriks pun jumpa ramai geng yang sama ideologi jadi semangat tu tetap menebal.

Tapi zaman uni macam dah slowed down. I don't remember why. Mungkin tak ada geng yang sama-sama haluan kiri. atau disebabkan Aukujanji masa tu. By right, masa tahun PRU 2004 I was already entitled to vote, but I'm pretty sure I didn't register. Tapi kalau register pun mungkin tak balik mengundi jugak, sebab zaman tu bukannya boleh suka-suka balik kampung sebab faktor harga tiket bas dan jarak perjalanan yang sungguh tak mesra pelajar. 

Bila dah kerja, ni zaman yang aku lost track of almost memories. Tapi aku pernah terserempak dengan Nurul Izzah kat Bangsar Village somewhere in 2008 or 2009, fangirl moment kejap, tapi cuma senyum dari jauh jelah. 

Dan masa PRU13, adalah timbul balik semangat tu sebab ada gang, mostly my Chinese friends. Tapi seingat aku masa tu bukan semangat reformasi dah, more to spread anti-racism sentiment lah kononnya. And also, it was my first time voting, although the ones I voted for both DUN and Parlimen lost.

So now, 2018, after 20 years, Anwar Ibrahim is finally a free man. Sebagai salah seorang yang pro-his side all the way, it is an inspiring moment for me. Of what patience and perseverance pays.

Sunday, May 20, 2018

A Cup of Comfort




I read this book in between of everything. So it took quite some time to finally finish this, hence, the wrinkly cover.  It consists of  short stories, ada yang betul-betul heart-warming, tapi ada jugak yang biasa-biasa, yang tak sampai ke hati sangat. 

Of all stories, I like "The Color of Prejudice" best. So, let me quote a few words from the story:

"Being hateful to someone who's been hateful to you just builds more hate. Hate leads to violence"

"I believe prejudice is fear and envy camouflaged as anger. And I believe fear and envy come from ignorance, from not really knowing or understanding the other person"

~M.A.Kosak



Overall, this book is a light read. 


Friday, May 18, 2018

Ramadhan 1439

Salam Ramadhan.

Well, it’s already day 2 of Ramadhan.

Rasanya topik yang hangat sebelum puasa adalah perihal kemaafan. Satu, pengampunan DSAI. Kedua, di kalangan kita semua, bila nak masuk Ramadhan, masing-masing bertukar ucapan maaf. 

Yang paling menyentuh hati, bila aku mintak maaf, orang cakap “Kau tak ada buat salah apa pun". 
Well, of course I had. Tapi mungkin kesalahan lama tu orang betul-betul dah maafkan sampai anggap kita macam tak pernah buat salah, sobsob, terharu..

Jadi, itulah dia. Kita kena berlapang dada untuk maafkan orang, terutama untuk orang yang betul-betul perlukan kemaafan kita.  Bukan saja kita bebaskan diri sendiri dari perasaan dendam dan marah, tetapi juga beri harapan pada orang yang kita maafkan tu.

Wednesday, May 16, 2018

Displaced & Forgotten


This is actually my latest purchase, but I cut the books queue and read it first.  There are true stories told by the refugees who seek asylum in Malaysia. Some are from conflicted countries like Palestine, Syria, Cambodia, Myanmar; and some are from the conflicted territory like Kashmir.

Honestly, I couldn't even imagine being in their shoes. Nauzubillah.

The fact that this modern holocaust is happening all around us, I think at some point, it's not news anymore. Isn't that scary? Bad and mean things happen so publicly and openly, yet the world just turns a blind eye.

This explains it exactly:


I keep on wondering how would this world get any better. But I don't know. Maybe it just won't.

Monday, May 14, 2018

Hantu Jeruk

Sejak muda-muda memang hantu jeruk, especially jeruk mempelam. Cuma bila dah kena gastrik, terpaksalah tone down sikit kesukaan tu.

Balik kampung baru-baru ni dapat bekalan mempelam dalam 10 biji dari mak mertua. Maka menjeruklah kita. 

Husband suruh buat jeruk sira (betulke nama ni), aku pulak sekarang lebih berminat pada jeruk asam boi. Jadi buat dua-dualah. 
Dua jenis jeruk mempelam


Aku rasa jeruk sira tu lebih gastrik-friendly (haha, sukati reka perkataan sendiri) sebab ingredient dia cuma gula melaka dan cili boh.  Yang jeruk asam boi ni - asam boi tu memang gastrik-trigger punya ingredient. Dengan cili padi lagi. Tak pelah, makan sikit-sikit sambil beringat. Atau buat ulam makan dengan nasi. *sedapkan hati.