Meet Me In The Middle

Why don't you just meet me in the middle

I’m losing my mind just a little

Pagi, petang duk dengar lagu ni. Tak tahu lagu apa, siapa yang nyanyi. Tak kuasa nak google. Aku agak Selena Gomez, betul ke?

Songs and Moments #3 [Low Man’s Lyric]

Yesterday, out of nowhere, tiba-tiba teringat this line from a song;

 “So I cry in the alley way, confess all to the rain” 

I know it’s Metallica but I don’t remember what song. So here it is, after googling. 

Lagu ni antara lagu-lagu yang aku dengar zaman matriks. Pinjam kaset (album Reload) dan walkman kawan masa tu, dengar masa nak pi kelas, dan dalam bas masa outing. 

For this particular song, aku suka sangat lirik dia. Walaupun ada orang kata it's about suicide-lah, pasal drugs-lah, but I guess, we can interpret it in any way we want it to relate to us.

#3 - Low Man's Lyric by Metallica

My eyes seek reality

My fingers seek my veins

There's a dog at your back step

He must come in from the rain

I fall 'cause I let go

The net below has rot away

So my eyes seek reality

And my fingers seek my veins

The trash fire is warm

But nowhere safe from the storm

And I can't bare to see

What I've let me be

So wicked and worn

So as I write to you

Of what is done and to do

Maybe you'll understand

And won't cry for this man

'Cause low man is due

Please forgive me

My eyes seek reality

My fingers feel for faith

Touch clean with a dirty hand

I touched the clean to the waste

The trash fire is warm

But nowhere safe from the storm

And I can't bare to see

What I've let me be

So wicked and worn

So as I write to you, yeah

Of what is done and to do

Maybe you'll understand

And won't cry for this man

'Cause low man is due

Please forgive me

Please forgive me

Please forgive me

So low the sky is all I see

All I want from you is forgive me

So you bring this poor dog in from the rain

Though he just wants right back out again

And I cry, to the alley way

Confess all to the rain

But I lie, lie straight to the mirror

The one I've broken, to match my face

My eyes seek reality

My fingers seek my veins

Songwriters: James Alan Hetfield / Lars Ulrich

RIP, Dolores

Found out about the news this morning. 

I love The Cranberries so much, I didn't know what to feel. Been listening to them since I was 12. Their songs are already a part of me so this really feels like a part of me has been ripped off.

I've always hoped and waited for their new material, and this, is so heart-breaking to me *cry*

Tak tahu nak tulis apa dah. Macam tak percaya. Sedih.

RIP, Dolores. Your voice and your pieces of art will always linger.

Hold onto love

that is what I do

now that I've found you

and from above

everything's stinking

they're not around you

And in the night

I could be hopeless

I could be lonely

sleeping without you

And in the day

everything's complex

there's nothing simple

when I'm not around you

But I miss you

when you're gone

that is what I do

and it's going to carry on

that is what I knew

Hold onto my hands

I feel like I'm sinking

sinking without you

and to my mind

everything's stinking

stinking without you.

RIP, Chester

Found out about the news yesterday. Sejak tak ada FB, insta ni memang terketinggalan sungguh rasanya. It felt so surreal, and a bit of heart-broken :(

Well, haven't listened much to Linkin Park's latest stuffs (except Castle of Glass). At some point, I thought they've broken up since Fort Minor. Tapi masa zaman kegemilangan mereka tu memang suka gila lagu-lagu diorang especially NUMB. Biasalah zaman remaja kita akan dengar lagu-lagu yang kita boleh relate to, kan? Which most of their songs were to me. Tapi tak ada beli kaset or CD sebab zaman tu dah start era MP3 so kumpul lagu diorang dalam PC je. Dan duk ulang-ulang dengar dekat WinAmp.

Anyway, read an article (shared by my sister) pasal last video they uploaded, one hour before Chester's death. It's called "Talking To Myself". So aku pun terus pi You Tube. Bila lagu nak start je, You Tube tu ter-off sendiri pulak. Hmm, goosebumps sangat.

And on the other note, bila makin ramai personel yang kita kind of grew up with pergi satu persatu, it kinda hit me. That we're growing old and one day, it'll be our turn, too. Semoga pengakhiran yang baik untuk kita semua.

RIP, Chester. Your legendary voice will always live on.

I Will Always Love You

There is this one line of song that always keep popping in my mind, but I couldn't figure out what song it is:

 "I will always love you"

Until last night. While I was driving, the song was on the radio so I Googled it afterwards.

Rupanya Lovesong by The Cure.

My Rock

I printscreen-ed this from Yasin's instagram after the news of Chris Cornell's death. 

The words speak my mind about a certain phase that I've been through and how songs have helped me pushed through it.

"They've helped us moved on.
They've pushed us out of bed.

They've helped us live when nobody else had the time to.
Artists have inspired us in endless ways and have been with us through stages in our lives"

I had my dark moments. Moments when I felt so lost but couldn't tell anyone about it. It was depressing. I had lost interest in everything. All I wanted to do was sleep. And of course, it did affect my studies back then.

Along side with other 'self-treatment' there were also two major things that helped me get through that phase - Coldplay and Sheila On 7. I remembered listening to them every day and in a way I felt like I wasn't alone. Their songs soothed and accompanied me, along with my struggle to get better. They were not self-help songs but it was as if someone telling me that "You've got this. You will be okay".

I'm sure I am just one out of million others they've helped and inspired . But THANK YOU!!

Songs and Moments #2 [Eternity]

#2 - Eternity by Robbie William

Close your eyes so you don't feel them

They don't need to see you cry

I can't promise I will heal you

But if you want to I will try

I'll sing this somber serenade

The past is done

We've been betrayed

It's true

Someone said the truth will out

I believe without a doubt

In you

You were there for summer dreaming

And you gave me what I need

And I hope you find your freedom

For eternity

For eternity

Yesterday when you were walking

We talked about your mom and dad

What they did to make you happy

What they did to make you sad

We sat and watched the sun go down

Picked a star before we lost the moon

Youth is wasted on the young

Before you know it's come and gone too soon

You were there for summer dreaming

And you gave me what I need

And I hope you find your freedom

For eternity

For eternity

For eternity

I'll sing this somber serenade

The past is done

We've been betrayed

It's true

Youth is wasted on the young

Before you know it's come and gone too soon

You were there for summer dreaming

And you are a friend indeed

And I hope you find your freedom

For eternity

You were there for summer dreaming

And you are a friend indeed

And I hope you find your freedom

Eventually

For eternity

For eternity

This song will bring me back to the Terminal Bas Butterworth dekat jeti feri tu. Masa tu terminal tu dah terbakar. Year 2001. Masa matriks. Tak ingat sem berapa. Tapi ingat suasana petang tu. Bersama dengan budak-budak Gang Bilik Belakang (haha nama gang tak boleh blah) yang balik kampung bas malam.

Lagu ni berkumandang masa kami jalan celah-celah kaunter bas. Bukannya tak pernah dengar lagu tu sebelum tu. Tapi entah kenapa bila dengar kat terminal masa tu, dia lekat dalam memori sampai sekarang.

Songs and Moments #1 [Temani Aku]

We all have that song(s) that specifically remind us of one specific moment every time we listen to it, right?

I have a few. Well, actually, a lot. So I'm going to make a list out of it in this blog.

#1 -  Temani Aku by Sheila on 7

Layaknya gelap malam

Yang indah karna bintang

Layaknya sang penyair

Yang elok karna puisi

Bagiku kau bintang

Selayaknya puisi

Tetaplah di sini peri kecilku

Bagiku kau bintang

Selayaknya puisi

Temani aku selamanya

Selamanya...

This song reminds me of my journey with my family all the way from Terengganu to Penang the day before USM registration day back in 2002.

It was a very long journey.

My father played the SO7 album on the cassette player almost the whole journey. Yes, he liked SO7, too, influenced by me ehehe.

So every time I listen to it I'd remember how the 6 of us cramped in one car for more than 12 hours, the highways, the stops, the "are-we-there-yet" feelings.

And there were no Waze or Google Map whatsoever back then so, once we reached Penang, Abah had to ask around on how to get to Nibong Tebal.

I have to admit the memory was a little vague now, well, it's been 15 years. But some songs will never get old, right?

Unintended

What i love the most about Muse is the lyrics (besides the suara tarik-nafas haha)

Come across this old song masa belek-belek YouTube jadi repeat 88 kali.


"You could be my unintended
Choice to live my life extended
You could be the one I'll always love
You could be the one who listens
To my deepest inquisitions
You could be the one I'll always love

I'll be there as soon as I can
But I'm busy mending broken
Pieces of the life I had before

First there was the one who challenged
All my dreams and all my balance
She could never be as good as you
You could be my unintended
Choice to live my life extended
You should be the one I'll always love

I'll be there as soon as I can
But I'm busy mending broken
Pieces of the life I had before

I'll be there as soon as I can
But I'm busy mending broken
Pieces of the life I had before

Before you"

..Princess of China..

My current favorite song by Coldplay

Once upon a time somebody ran
Somebody ran away saying fast as I can
I've got to go...got to go

Once upon a time we fell apart
You're holding in your hands the two Halves of my heart
Ohhhhh, ohhhhh!

Once upon a time, we burn bright
That all we ever seem to do is fight
On and on...
And on and on and on...

Once upon a time on the same side.
Once upon a time on the same side, at the same Day
And why'd you have to go have to go and throw it all on my fame


I could've been a Princess, You'd be a King
Could've had a castle, and wore a ring
But noooooo, you let me gooooooo!

I could've been a Princess, You'd be a king
Could've had a castle, and wore a ring
But noooooo, you let me gooooooo!

And stole my star

La, la, la, la, la, la, la, la
You stole my star la, la la la la laaaaaa

Oooooooh-oh oh oooooooh oh oh oh ohhhhhhhhh
Oooooooh-oh oh oooooooh oh oh oh ohhhhhhhhh

Cause you really hurt me
No you really hurt me
Cause you really hurt me
No you really hurt me
Cause you really hurt me
Ooooooooh no you really hurt me
Cause you really hurt me
Ooooooooh no you really hurt me....

..Kuch Kuch Hota Hai??..

*mode: melayan hati lepas my sister's family went back to Kemaman. rindu pulak suasana riuh-rendah itu :(

So, mari distract hati.

Tadi petang bukak facebook, ramai orang update pasal Kuch Kuch Hota Hai ni. I'm not a fan of Hindi movie but I did watch this movie back then. Tengok kat dewan sekolah kott.. haha, hebat tak hebat lah penangan movie ni kat sekolah dulu.

Anyway, ada satu lagu hindustan yang I suka - Dil Kya Kare *terror tak I ingat tajuk lagu tu :p ngee. Haha, actually baru lepas google "filem Kajol and Ajay Devgan" and this one does ring the bell :p

Tapi serius, lagu tu sedap bagi saya :)

..Run..

I actually first listened to Leona Lewis cover version but never really liked it.

Until I watched Charlie Saint Cloud movie recently, which featuring this song by the originator band, Snow Patrol - I think this song is awesome!!!

"Run"

I'll sing it one last time for you
Then we really have to go
You've been the only thing that's right
In all I've done

And I can barely look at you
But every single time I do
I know we'll make it anywhere
Away from here

Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear

Louder louder
And we'll run for our lives
I can hardly speak I understand
Why you can't raise your voice to say

To think I might not see those eyes
Makes it so hard not to cry
And as we say our long goodbye
I nearly do

Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear

Louder louder
And we'll run for our lives
I can hardly speak I understand
Why you can't raise your voice to say

Slower slower
We don't have time for that
All I want's to find an easy way
To get out of our little heads

Hush Hush my dear
We're bound to be afraid
Even if it's just for a few days
Making up for all this mess

Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear

..Ya Rasullah..

I love this song. It really burst me into tears.

..Write You A Song..

Sangat sweet lagu ni...

Ok, mari dengar sambil berangan En Hubby main gitar and nyanyi lagu ini to me (well, in dreams, of course!) haha *feeling budak high school.

Owh, except for the part "I can't buy you nice things.." or "I can't give you the house you've been dreaming.." - please En Hubby don't sing that to me...ngeh ngeh ngeh

*Video clip nya tak de kot so layan lirik jelah yer :P

I don't know how to make lots of money
I got debts that I'm trying to pay
I can't buy you nice things, like big diamond rings
But that don't mean much anyway
I can't give you the house you've been dreaming
If I could I would build it alone
I'd be out there all day, just hammering away
Make us a place of our own

I will write you a song
That's how you'll know that my love is still strong
I will write you a song
And you'll know from this song that I just can't go on without you

I don't know that I'd make a good soldier
I don't believe in being violent and cruel
I don't know how to fight, but I'll draw blood tonight
If somebody tries hurting you tonight

I will write you a song
That's how you'll know that my love is still strong
I will write you a song
And you'll know from this song that I just can't go on without you

Now that it's out on the table (it's out on the table)
Both of us knew all along (knew all along)
I've got your loving and you've got my song

I don't know how to make lots of money
I don't know all the right things to do
I can't say where we'll go, but the one thing I know
Is how to be a good man to you
Until I die that's what I'll do

I will write you a song
That's how you'll know that my love is still strong
I will write you a song
And you'll know from this song that I just can't go on without
I will write you a song (I will write you a song)
That's how you'll know that my love is still strong (love is still strong)
I will write you a song
And you know from this song that I just can't go on without you

..Jar of Hearts..

I love the lyrics and she writes her own song. *I always love singers/bands who writes their own song - they tend to sound honest and full of soul.

I also love the cover version by Lea Michele in Glee. *Owh, Prom Night episode sangat best. Suka sangat Mercedes and Sam hehe. Ok, enough about Glee.

As for now, this my 24/7 song. The voice is so amazing, tak puas nak dengar. The words are so deep and touching, like "I learned to live, half-alive" and "You're gonna catch a cold, from the ice inside your soul..."

You know I can't take one more step towards you
Cause all that's waiting is regret
And don't you know I'm not your ghost anymore?
You lost the love
I loved the most

And I learned to live, half-alive
And now you want me one more time

Who do you think you are?
Runnin' round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Who do you think you are?

I hear you're asking all around
If I am anywhere to be found
But I have grown too strong
To ever fall back in your arms

And I learned to live, half-alive
And now you want me one more time

Who do you think you are?
Runnin round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Who do you think you are?

Dear, it took so long just to feel alright
Remember how to put back the light in my eyes
I wish I had missed the first time that we kissed
Cause you broke all your promises
And now you're back
You don't get to get me back

Who do you think you are?
Runnin' round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Don't come back at all

And who do you think you are
Running round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
Don't come back for me
Don't come back at all

Who do you think you are?

Who do you think you are?

Who do you think you are?

..What the H***..

Hmm... Nak link kan video clip lagu ni, tapi internet usage has reached quota limit, makanya tidak dapat lagi menonton video di You Tube. Dan sekarang tengah melilau nak download lagu Avril Lavigne ni. Sebenarnya kalau tengok official video clip dia agak menyampah, tapi bila tengok live performance baru macam ok dengar lagu ni.

Btw, gula dah naik harga, fuel tak lama lagi kot *tetibe.

All my life I've been good,
But now...
I'm thinking, "what the hell?"
All I want is to mess around
And I don't really care about...

If you love me
If you hate me
You can't save me
Baby, baby
All my life I've been good
But now...
What the hell?

What?
What?
What?
What the hell?

..Can't Take My Eyes Off Of You..

No, not the one that Heath Ledger sang in "10 Things I Hate About You".

This one is the OST of "Closer" movie (starred Julia Roberts, Jude Law, Natalie Portman and Clive Owen).

Lagu ni macam melankolik semacam - which I like :)

"Can't Take My Eyes Off of You" by Damien Rice

And so it is
Just like you said it would be
Life goes easy on me
Most of the time
And so it is
The shorter story
No love, no glory
No hero in her sky

I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes...

And so it is
Just like you said it should be
We'll both forget the breeze
Most of the time
And so it is
The colder water
The blower's daughter
The pupil in denial

I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes...

Did I say that I loathe you?
Did I say that I want to
Leave it all behind?

I can't take my mind off of you
I can't take my mind off you
I can't take my mind off of you
I can't take my mind off you
I can't take my mind off you
I can't take my mind...
My mind...my mind...
'Til I find somebody new

..Need You Now..

2011 Grammys' Best Song of The Year (yang mengalahkan Eminem's Love The Way You Lie huhu) - memang selalu dengar lagu ni tapi no idea who was the singer all these while. And it's Lady Antebellum *tak pernah dengar pulak nama ini before :P

Picture perfect memories, scattered all around the floor.
Reaching for the phone cause, I can't fight it any more.
And I wonder if I ever cross your mind.
For me it happens all the time.

It's a quarter after one,
I'm all alone and I need you now.
I said I wouldn't call but I lost all control
and I need you now.
And I don't know how I can do without,
I just need you now.

Another shot of whiskey,
can't stop looking at the door.
Wishing you'd come sweeping in the way you did before.
And I wonder if I ever cross your mind.
For me it happens all the time.

It's a quarter after one,
I'm a little drunk and I need you now.
I said I wouldn't call but I lost all control
and I need you now.
And I don't know how I can do without,
I just need you now.

I guess I'd rather hurt than feel nothing at all.

It's a quarter after one,
I'm all alone and I need you now.
And I said I wouldn't call,
but I'm a little drunk and I need you now.
And I don't know how I can do without,
I just need you now.
I just need you now.
Oh baby I need you now.

..AJL?..

Mula-mula macam semangat nak tengok. Of course, I hoped Faizal Tahir would win the Juara Lagu.

But last night I didn't manage to watch until the end. Hmm, dah macam rutin pulak tertidur depan tv sekarang.

Tup tup pagi tadi dapat tau Ana Rafali yang menang. My first thought was alaa..macam tak best jek lagu tuh...Macam mana leh menang...

Masa lunch tadi pun budak-budak ofis duk cerita pasal AJL semalam, semua pun jadi juri tak rasmi dengan soalan yang sama..

Then tadi pas balik kerja catch up tengok balik. And since dah siap masak, En Hubby pun tak balik lagi ni, terasa terajin nak review from my point of view.

Yuna - I love the lyrics - the words are so beautiful and the voice - the kind of voice that I love to hear tapi melodi dia saya tak terpikat

Tomok - I think he's not original at all. Tak minat.

A.P.I - Suara Azlan tu memanglah power, tapi lagu - tak minat.

Shahir - ada lagi orang yang nyanyi pakai orang baca sajak2 ni rupanya... And saya memang tak minat penyanyi-penyanyi from reality tv show.

Meet Uncle Hussain feat Black - Tak minat ini lagu

*Patutla saya tertidur right after this performance malam tadi. Semua lagu setakat ni saya tak minat kan...

Hafiz - Fast forward. Tak minat.

Ana Rafali - I have to admit this was the first time I really listen to this song. And realized that it is such a masterpiece. Saya memang suka dengar suara macam ni and this song is really beautiful. Plus she writes and composes her own song - she's so talented.

Faizal Tahir (Selamat Malam) - Satu-satunya penyanyi from reality show yang saya suka. but lagu ni macam dah lama gila, saya memang suka lagu ini tapi sebab dah banyak kali dengar dah macam bosan. Tapi persembahan tu sangat-sangat sweet. Macam tak di-choreographed and looked natural.

Adira - Fast Forward. Tak minat.

Bunk Face - Tak minat ini lagu, tapi bolehlah tengok the whole performance tanpa fast-forward.

Black - Tolonglah selamatkan mamat ini dari jadi mamat bunga nyanyi lagu-lagu macam ni..Tolonglah jadi vokalis Meet Uncle Hussain... Haih.

Faizal Tahir [Hanyut] - OK, saya memang suka lagu dan suara. Tapi saya tak boleh tengok performance dia. Rasa macam "Eeii, poyonyerrr.." Haha.

Stacy - Fast Forward. Tak minat.

Hujan - Tak minat.

Oklah, tu jek ulasan saya yang majoriti nya adalah "Tak minat". Hampeh sungguh pengulas ini.

Owh, btw, shut up tak shup-up? Adehla..

..How's It Gonna Be..

Right now for me, there's nothing current which is interesting to listen to on the radio. So I found this song while searching for something my ears would want to hear.

Kalau tak silap ni lagu zaman high school dulu.

I'm only pretty sure that
I can't take anymore
Before you take a swing
I wonder, what are we fighting for

When I say out loud
I want to get out of this
I wonder, is there anything I'm gonna miss

I wonder
How's it gonna be
When you don't know me
How's it gonna be
When you're sure I'm not there
How's it gonna be
When there's no one there to talk to you
Between you and me
'Cause I don't care
How's it gonna be
How's it gonna be

Where we used to laugh
There's a shouting match
Sharp as a thumbnail scratch
A silence I can't ignore
Like the hammock by the doorway we spent time in
Swings empty
I don't see lightning like last fall
When it was always about to hit me

I wonder
How's it gonna be
When it goes down
How's it gonna be
When you're not around
How's it gonna be
When you found out there was nothing
Between you and me
'Cause I don't care
How's it gonna be

How's it gonna be
When you don't know me any more
And how's it gonna be

Want to get myself back in again
The soft dive of oblivion
I want to taste the salt of your skin
The soft dive of oblivion, oblivion

How's it gonna be
When you don't know me any more
How's it gonna be
How's it gonna be
How's it gonna be