How I Met Your Mother

Netflix dah ada HIMYM. So boleh marathon untuk kali kedua (kononnya). Tapi rupanya tak kuasa dah nak re-watch. I ended up watching the very first episode and the last 4 episodes of season 9 je.

“You will be shocked kids, when you discover how easy it is in life to part ways with people forever. That's why, when you find someone you want to keep around, you do something about it.” -Ted-

But sometimes, there are not really much to be done, I guess. When it’s time to part ways, all we can do is reminiscing the good old times (as long as it’s not faded away, that is). The past is past, no matter how much we want to re-live it. 

The truth is, I miss a lot of people.

The Diary

I’ve found this journal of mine in the cat’s room. Okay, it's actually a storage room, but the kucings sleep in there, too 😂

So, the journal was dated somewhere in between 2007 and a bit of 2008. Zaman bujang, masa mula-mula merantau ke JB dulu, duduk rumah bujang - menempuhi alam pekerjaan dan alam dewasa. Gitu..

Reading it back giving me such a mixed feelings! It’s like opening doors that I do not wish to open anymore haha. Some of it reminded me of those who had hurt me in the past. Haishh, I think I really shouldn't have read it. Visiting the past that I've already forgotten is so not healthy. Haishh lagi. But, come to think of that, I am no longer the same person that I was in 2007, so I bet those people must have changed, too.

Masa ni actually dah start blogging, tapi on a different blog account. Zaman tu internet was not on-the-go, kerja macam orang gila, kat office tak sempat dan ditambah dengan faktor jujur, maka tak ada curi-curi blogging punya (haha, yeke?), hence, the journal.

Aku tak sure mane aku jumpa puisi ni, gigh kan, siap salin haa.. So tepeklah kat sini sikit. Lain-lain page tak boleh nak share, a little too personal eheh.

I don't think my handwriting looks like this anymore 

1998 - 2018

I think I just have to document this. I don't exactly know why, but DSAI's release seems like an important thing to remember.

It all started in 1998 - when he was sacked - I was already pro-Anwar. I started adding alphabet H at the end of my name, bersempena nama anak beliau, Nurul Izzah. To be exact, aku eja nama aku macam ni - Izza(h). Haha, kengkonon, either way, Izza or Izzah. Pernah terlintas jugak dalam fikiran masa tu, mungkin bakal suami nanti orang yang nama start dengan huruf H kot. In hindsight, it actually made sense, haha.

Dan seingat aku lagi, mak pernah bagitau that Mak Abah named me after Anwar Ibrahim's daughter,  who is 2 years older than me, so it made sense. Mungkin Mak Abah memang dah follow Anwar Ibrahim dah zaman tu.

Teringat malam-malam lepas prep duk bersembang hal politik dengan dormmates. Masa tu internet was scarce, tak di hujung jari macam sekarang. Dan bukan semua orang ada line Internet dekat rumah.  Maka we based on hardcopy reading materials, newspaper from both government and opposition sides, lepas tu ada lah flyers and brcohures. And the fact that one of the girls in my batch is related to Anwar Ibrahim. 

Semangat reformasi masa tu memang lain macam, haha. Tapi aku tak pernahlah join mana-mana demonstrasi Reformasi masa tu. Ada satu malam, lepas habis prep malam, masa nak balik hostel, ada ramai FRU dalam school compund, tapi dah tak ingat kenapa. Mungkin ada demonstrasi kat PWTC kot. Cuaklah perasaan masa tu. But nothing bad happened.

Masa matriks pun jumpa ramai geng yang sama ideologi jadi semangat tu tetap menebal.

Tapi zaman uni macam dah slowed down. I don't remember why. Mungkin tak ada geng yang sama-sama haluan kiri. atau disebabkan Aukujanji masa tu. By right, masa tahun PRU 2004 I was already entitled to vote, but I'm pretty sure I didn't register. Tapi kalau register pun mungkin tak balik mengundi jugak, sebab zaman tu bukannya boleh suka-suka balik kampung sebab faktor harga tiket bas dan jarak perjalanan yang sungguh tak mesra pelajar. 

Bila dah kerja, ni zaman yang aku lost track of almost memories. Tapi aku pernah terserempak dengan Nurul Izzah kat Bangsar Village somewhere in 2008 or 2009, fangirl moment kejap, tapi cuma senyum dari jauh jelah. 

Dan masa PRU13, adalah timbul balik semangat tu sebab ada gang, mostly my Chinese friends. Tapi seingat aku masa tu bukan semangat reformasi dah, more to spread anti-racism sentiment lah kononnya. And also, it was my first time voting, although the ones I voted for both DUN and Parlimen lost.

So now, 2018, after 20 years, Anwar Ibrahim is finally a free man. Sebagai salah seorang yang pro-his side all the way, it is an inspiring moment for me. Of what patience and perseverance pays.

Songs and Moments #3 [Low Man’s Lyric]

Yesterday, out of nowhere, tiba-tiba teringat this line from a song;

 “So I cry in the alley way, confess all to the rain” 

I know it’s Metallica but I don’t remember what song. So here it is, after googling. 

Lagu ni antara lagu-lagu yang aku dengar zaman matriks. Pinjam kaset (album Reload) dan walkman kawan masa tu, dengar masa nak pi kelas, dan dalam bas masa outing. 

For this particular song, aku suka sangat lirik dia. Walaupun ada orang kata it's about suicide-lah, pasal drugs-lah, but I guess, we can interpret it in any way we want it to relate to us.

#3 - Low Man's Lyric by Metallica

My eyes seek reality

My fingers seek my veins

There's a dog at your back step

He must come in from the rain

I fall 'cause I let go

The net below has rot away

So my eyes seek reality

And my fingers seek my veins

The trash fire is warm

But nowhere safe from the storm

And I can't bare to see

What I've let me be

So wicked and worn

So as I write to you

Of what is done and to do

Maybe you'll understand

And won't cry for this man

'Cause low man is due

Please forgive me

My eyes seek reality

My fingers feel for faith

Touch clean with a dirty hand

I touched the clean to the waste

The trash fire is warm

But nowhere safe from the storm

And I can't bare to see

What I've let me be

So wicked and worn

So as I write to you, yeah

Of what is done and to do

Maybe you'll understand

And won't cry for this man

'Cause low man is due

Please forgive me

Please forgive me

Please forgive me

So low the sky is all I see

All I want from you is forgive me

So you bring this poor dog in from the rain

Though he just wants right back out again

And I cry, to the alley way

Confess all to the rain

But I lie, lie straight to the mirror

The one I've broken, to match my face

My eyes seek reality

My fingers seek my veins

Songwriters: James Alan Hetfield / Lars Ulrich

23 Years Ago

Pagi tadi pergi breakfast dengan Mak dan Abah dekat area pasar pagi, terjumpa cikgu kelas 6 Melati masa sekolah rendah dulu - Cikgu Fazidahanim.

Mula-mula tak cam masa mak tegur dia sebab macam terset dalam kepala yang itu kawan mak, maka tak terfikir rupanya beliau tu orang yang aku kenal. Bila cikgu senyum, baru aku cam. Senyuman yang sama macam 23 tahun yang dulu.

Memang tak pernah jumpa dah lepas habis sekolah rendah. Memang aku tak pernah dah terserempak dengan cikgu-cikgu (or even most of kawan-kawan sekolah rendah aku). Mungkin sebab aku dah tak duduk Kemaman sangat sejak tu, dan setiap kali cuti sekolah dan cuti sem dulu aku duduk memerap je kat rumah, maka kebarangkalian nak terjumpa sesiapa tu tipis sangat. Dan sekarang ni walaupun dah rajin merayap bila balik kampung, aku rasa kalau terjumpa pun mungkin aku dah tak berapa nak cam. Dah lama sangat.

Tapi cikgu masih ingat aku, siap ingat tahun dia mengajar aku, dan aku dapat offer sekolah mana lepas sekolah rendah tu, terharu sungguh! Jasamu ku kenang sampai bila-bila, cikgu 😘😘

RIP, Chester

Found out about the news yesterday. Sejak tak ada FB, insta ni memang terketinggalan sungguh rasanya. It felt so surreal, and a bit of heart-broken :(

Well, haven't listened much to Linkin Park's latest stuffs (except Castle of Glass). At some point, I thought they've broken up since Fort Minor. Tapi masa zaman kegemilangan mereka tu memang suka gila lagu-lagu diorang especially NUMB. Biasalah zaman remaja kita akan dengar lagu-lagu yang kita boleh relate to, kan? Which most of their songs were to me. Tapi tak ada beli kaset or CD sebab zaman tu dah start era MP3 so kumpul lagu diorang dalam PC je. Dan duk ulang-ulang dengar dekat WinAmp.

Anyway, read an article (shared by my sister) pasal last video they uploaded, one hour before Chester's death. It's called "Talking To Myself". So aku pun terus pi You Tube. Bila lagu nak start je, You Tube tu ter-off sendiri pulak. Hmm, goosebumps sangat.

And on the other note, bila makin ramai personel yang kita kind of grew up with pergi satu persatu, it kinda hit me. That we're growing old and one day, it'll be our turn, too. Semoga pengakhiran yang baik untuk kita semua.

RIP, Chester. Your legendary voice will always live on.

My Rock

I printscreen-ed this from Yasin's instagram after the news of Chris Cornell's death. 

The words speak my mind about a certain phase that I've been through and how songs have helped me pushed through it.

"They've helped us moved on.
They've pushed us out of bed.

They've helped us live when nobody else had the time to.
Artists have inspired us in endless ways and have been with us through stages in our lives"

I had my dark moments. Moments when I felt so lost but couldn't tell anyone about it. It was depressing. I had lost interest in everything. All I wanted to do was sleep. And of course, it did affect my studies back then.

Along side with other 'self-treatment' there were also two major things that helped me get through that phase - Coldplay and Sheila On 7. I remembered listening to them every day and in a way I felt like I wasn't alone. Their songs soothed and accompanied me, along with my struggle to get better. They were not self-help songs but it was as if someone telling me that "You've got this. You will be okay".

I'm sure I am just one out of million others they've helped and inspired . But THANK YOU!!

Songs and Moments #2 [Eternity]

#2 - Eternity by Robbie William

Close your eyes so you don't feel them

They don't need to see you cry

I can't promise I will heal you

But if you want to I will try

I'll sing this somber serenade

The past is done

We've been betrayed

It's true

Someone said the truth will out

I believe without a doubt

In you

You were there for summer dreaming

And you gave me what I need

And I hope you find your freedom

For eternity

For eternity

Yesterday when you were walking

We talked about your mom and dad

What they did to make you happy

What they did to make you sad

We sat and watched the sun go down

Picked a star before we lost the moon

Youth is wasted on the young

Before you know it's come and gone too soon

You were there for summer dreaming

And you gave me what I need

And I hope you find your freedom

For eternity

For eternity

For eternity

I'll sing this somber serenade

The past is done

We've been betrayed

It's true

Youth is wasted on the young

Before you know it's come and gone too soon

You were there for summer dreaming

And you are a friend indeed

And I hope you find your freedom

For eternity

You were there for summer dreaming

And you are a friend indeed

And I hope you find your freedom

Eventually

For eternity

For eternity

This song will bring me back to the Terminal Bas Butterworth dekat jeti feri tu. Masa tu terminal tu dah terbakar. Year 2001. Masa matriks. Tak ingat sem berapa. Tapi ingat suasana petang tu. Bersama dengan budak-budak Gang Bilik Belakang (haha nama gang tak boleh blah) yang balik kampung bas malam.

Lagu ni berkumandang masa kami jalan celah-celah kaunter bas. Bukannya tak pernah dengar lagu tu sebelum tu. Tapi entah kenapa bila dengar kat terminal masa tu, dia lekat dalam memori sampai sekarang.

Songs and Moments #1 [Temani Aku]

We all have that song(s) that specifically remind us of one specific moment every time we listen to it, right?

I have a few. Well, actually, a lot. So I'm going to make a list out of it in this blog.

#1 -  Temani Aku by Sheila on 7

Layaknya gelap malam

Yang indah karna bintang

Layaknya sang penyair

Yang elok karna puisi

Bagiku kau bintang

Selayaknya puisi

Tetaplah di sini peri kecilku

Bagiku kau bintang

Selayaknya puisi

Temani aku selamanya

Selamanya...

This song reminds me of my journey with my family all the way from Terengganu to Penang the day before USM registration day back in 2002.

It was a very long journey.

My father played the SO7 album on the cassette player almost the whole journey. Yes, he liked SO7, too, influenced by me ehehe.

So every time I listen to it I'd remember how the 6 of us cramped in one car for more than 12 hours, the highways, the stops, the "are-we-there-yet" feelings.

And there were no Waze or Google Map whatsoever back then so, once we reached Penang, Abah had to ask around on how to get to Nibong Tebal.

I have to admit the memory was a little vague now, well, it's been 15 years. But some songs will never get old, right?

Cerita Mee Sotong

To be honest, sebelum pergi Penang last month, aku tak pernah tahu pun pasal Mee Sotong ni. 

Ceritanya, tengahari tu nak pi makan nasi kandar dan pergi Queensbay Mall. Staff kat hotel advised suruh naik GrabCar je sebab area nasi kandar tu payah nak cari parking katanya.

Bila sembang-sembang dengan semua driver GrabCar, bagitahu plan petang tu nak pergi Padang Kota, semua tanya "Nak makan mee sotong ke?"

Okay, enough of mukaddimah.

Petang tu, drive sendiri pergi Padang Kota. Mula-mula kami pergi medan selera yang menghadap laut tu, rupa-rupanya mee sotong tak ada di situ. Tapi sempatlah pekena gado-gado dulu sepinggan sebelum teruskan misi mencari.

Lepas tu menapak cuba cari Mee Sotong ni, tapi tak jumpa. Jadi kami decide patah balik ambik kereta. Dapat pulak 'surat cinta' sebab parking tak letak parking coupon. Met with another fella from JB yang katanya kereta dia kena tow. Tanya penguatkuasa kat situ rupanya parking-charging hours tu sampai pukul 12 malam. Kalau parking merata (bukan kat tempat parking), depa akan clamp/tow. Kalau parking kat tempat parking without parking coupon, kena fine lah. 

Lepas tu kami parking lagi without parking coupon sebab dah ada surat cinta kan. Finally, jumpa Mee Sotong tu dekat Esplanade Park, sebelah Fort Cornwallis. Gerai yang ada tulis "Mee Sotong" (haha, obviously)

So this is how Mee Sotong looks like:

Mee goreng + sambal sotong. Not tempting, huh? Haha. Tapi actually, sambal sotong dia tu sedaplah. Manis-manis gitu. Not bad. Harga dia (kalau tak silap) RM5.00


Okaylah nak tepek gambar, fefeling down the memory lane ngee. Both pics taken at around the same place,

2017: 

2006:

Banyak dah berubah, physical and mental-wise haha.

Pulang ke Gagang

Last week (March 27, 2017)

Sangat sentimental bila kembali ke tempat menimba ilmu, tempat meniti alam dewasa, tempat emosi yang macam-macam haha (tak perlulah elaborate sangat)

Bila dikira, dah 11 tahun rupanya tinggalkan bumi USM yang tandus. Susah nak percaya it's been that long. Macam masih terasa jalan kaki 15 minit pergi kelas hari-hari, pergi library malam-malam bila dah dekat nak exam, etc etc.

Jadinya, lepas 11 tahun, dah banyak pokok, dah tak tandus lagi macam dulu. Nampak serabut haha, yelah sebab dalam memori ni cuma ada imej USM yang gersang. Tapi okaylah, dah redup. Dari school nak ke desa pun dah terkial-kial tak ingat dah jalan mana.

Ingat nak bergambar depan School, tapi ramai pulak student lalu-lalang maka tak jadilah. Nak bergambar depan gate tu pun bukan main segan sampailah kena marah "Dah datang jauh-jauh, malu pulak" Haha. 

Serius rindu sangat. 

And recently jumpa balik gambar-gambar zaman kampus yang di-burn dalam CD, banyak rupanya moment yang dah makin pudar. Bila tengok gambar, macam "Eh, bila masa pulak ni". 

It was not all sweet memories back then. There were also tear-y moments, heartbroken moments but still, I'll cherish all of them (selagi boleh ingat, InsyaAllah)

Darjah 1

Recently FB newsfeed penuh dengan post kawan-kawan hantar anak darjah 1.

I still remember what it was like on my first day of standard one.Yelah, anak sendiri tak ada, jadi terkenangkan kenangan sendiri jelah, which I remember quite clearly until now.

I must say, I must've been such a tough kid back then hahaha. Entahlah.

What I can remember is that Abah yang hantar masa tu. Tapi Abah tak hantar sampai kelas pun. Abah hantar then Abah terus pergi kerja. Tak de tunggu-tunggu punya.

So aku sendiri-sendiri pandai-pandai beratur ikut entah mana-mana kelas masa cikgu bawak tour satu sekolah tunjuk toilet kat mana semua tu, turned out I followed the wrong class. When it was time to enter the classroom the teacher told me that my name was not listed under the class. Yang aku ingat lepas tu aku berdiri je luar kelas tu bersama dengan parents yang duk tunggu anak-anak masing-masing.

Come to think of that now, I don't understand why the teacher didn't help me to get to the right class 😔. Sampailah ada seorang kakak tu perasan yang aku berdiri kat luar kelas macam tu, dia belek nametag aku. Nasib baik Abah ada tuliskan nama kelas dekat belakang nametag. Zaman tu bukan pakai nametag yang jahit tu tapi nametag yang pin dekat baju. Jadi kakak tulah yang hantar aku pergi kelas yang sepatutnya.

The whole time I didn't cry cuma I remember feeling 'tak tahu nak pergi mana'.

Maybe that was one of the reason yang buat aku anti sangat dengan budak-budak manja. Because my whole life (even at the age of 7) aku dah berdikari kot.

I think masa tu mungkin ada miscommunication kot dengan Abah. Maybe Abah dah bagitau sepatutnya pergi mana cuma aku yang blur-blur pergi ikut salah kelas haha.

But it was all fine. Aku memang OK je masa tu tak nangis langsung pun. It was not a bad memory for me. It was one kind of a memory 😊.

Of The Drafted Thoughts

Was browsing my old draft items in this blog.

(And to my surprise, some of it was as old as 2011...adoii.)

There were many completed entries unposted.

Even though they maybe ancient history, I think I should start posting them as #throwback? Hehe.

..The Day I Lost My Temper - the essay..

I noticed there were quite a traffic leading to my blog which searching for 'the day i lost my temper'. Apparently it was referring to this entry back then.

Anyway, I wonder - adakah adik-adik SPM tengah buat past years' question and google for the sample essay? Hmm... So, I'm thinking, maybe I can make my blog useful and share what I wrote in the essay for my English SPM paper essay back in 1999. (Of all the questions, I think this is the only SPM question I still remember)

So the year was 1999. Those from the same era as mine *eheh, I bet you must be able to recall the "Trenchcoat Mafia" incident which happened in USA, somewhere in April that year.

So basically, I was using that idea for my essay. I twisted the story secukup rasa - so my version was - a misfit boy who finally lost his temper after being bullied for a long time, shot his fellow classmates, including his bestfriend (unintentionally). Something like that.

Haha. Sounded violent much, no? *nasib tak kena kaunseling ngeh3x*

Please don't get me wrong, I am not a violent person. I quote "I am the most harmless person - the only person I could really hurt is myself" . And I'm pretty sure I would had never come out with that story on my own - it was all 'inspired' by that true story of Columbine High School massacre.

..Re-visiting Childhood Memory..

When I was 12, I was so in love with these 2 comics. I borrowed from library (the one near to Padang Astaka) but never got the chance to read the endings. They were Japanese comics but the ones I read was in Bahasa Indonesia's translation.

Hmm, actually I think there were 3 comics, but I can't recall the other one.

Now, anyone know where can i find the complete series?

..Once Upon A Time..

Those were on my early working days...




Taken this on last Sunday masa pergi beraya umah Hubby's friend at Ulu tiram.

Rindu? Maybe not, but still, the experiences are priceless!!

..Lagu Kegilaan Suatu Ketika Dahulu..

Lagu ni masa zaman matrikulasi. Hmm, bila teringat zaman itu, saya selalu macam akan terbau satu scent.

Susah nak explain tapi kadang-kadang scent tu akan datang tiba-tiba dan mengingatkan saya pada zaman tu. Or the other way around.

Back to the song, dah lama sangat nak dengar balik lagu ni. Masa tu tak bepeluang sangat nak dengar lagu ni banyak kali so now, thanks to YouTube :P

Lagu ni tak seglamour lagu "Hanging By The Moment" masa tu but I love this more, it's so beautiful...

~BREATHING~

I'm finding my way back to sanity again
Though I don't really know what I'm going to do when I get there
Take a breath and hold on tight, spin around one more time
And gracefully fall back to the arms of Grace

'Cause I am hanging on every word you say and
Even if you don't want to speak tonight that's alright, alright with me
'Cause I want nothing more than to sit outside Heaven's door
And listen to you breathing, is where I want to be, yeah
Where I want to be

I'm looking past the shadows in my mind into the truth and I'm
Trying to identify the voices in my head, God which one's you?
Let me feel one more time what it feels like to feel alive
And break these calluses off of me, one more time

'Cause I am hanging on every word you say and
Even if you don't want to speak tonight that's alright, alright with me
'Cause I want nothing more than to sit outside your door
And listen to you breathing, is where I want to be, yeah

I don't want a thing from you
Bet you're tired of me waiting for the scraps
To fall off your table to the ground
'Cause I just want to be here now

'Cause I am hanging on every word you say and
Even if you don't want to speak tonight that's alright, alright with me
'Cause I want nothing more than to sit outside Heaven's door
And listen to you breathing, is where I want to be, yeah

'Cause I am hanging on every word you say and
Even if you don't want to speak tonight that's alright, alright with me
'Cause I want nothing more than to sit outside Heaven's door
And listen to you breathing, is where I want to be, yeah

Where I want to be
Where I want to be

..That Old Brown Vincci Heels..

Dah buruk baru sibuk2 nak amik gambar dia..

Will be thrown away due to it's condition, but i'd like to reminisce the good old days we spent together. It had been with me during those major and important moments in my life

1. I wore it when i first met future in-laws (now is officially in-laws) *tapi tak nampak plak dalam gambar ni



2. I wore it during my convocation 2006.


3. I wore it for the interview where i got my first Engineer job 2006. *yang ni tak de gambar - memang tak ambik gambar masa pergi interview tu. gambar-gambar masa kerja kat MTP pun dah tak dapat dikesan

Thanks for all those moments, I'll remember you :)

..kisah sahur..

skg nk bgn sahur bkn main liat...

teringt sy waktu bujang2 dulu, time berkumpul adek-beradek bile masing-masing balik kg bercuti.

salu bile dh berkumpul, aktiviti mlm2 ialah tgk tv sampai tertido2 dpn tv.

ade satu thn tu sy baik sket..bile terjage dpn tv (selalunye kul 4 lebih) tu sy akn masak air n panaskan lauk2 tuk sahur. sebelum2 tu, bgn2 je mknn dh siap terhidang, tinggal nk mkn jek.

waktu sahur kt umah mmg lewat, dekat2 ngn imsak, spt yg disunatkan.. :)

satu ari, mcm besa, sy mesti champion jd 1st person yg tertdo dpn tv. tgh2 sedap tdo, adek2 sy kejutkan tuk sahur. tgk jam dh kul 430pg. sy pon pegi dapur masak air, n start nk panaskan lauk.

pastu terdgr bdk2 tu gelak2...

then si biri2 tnye "along watpe tuh?ngigau ke"

"nk sahurla"

"awalnye, bru kul 12"

sy pon g tgk balik jam...cesss, bdk2 ni g cepatkn jam nk kenakan sy. rupenye baru setgh jam sy tdo..

hmm..those were the days...

..Kisah Pertemuan Aku dan Dia..

ehehe...gempaknye tittle nih..

sebenarnye, reason en3 ni dibuat sbb sy rase sy mcm mule lupe tarikh2 penting dlm idup nih..since i'm getting 'younger' and makin byk mende yg dh dilalui, n nk diingatkan, jd sgt2 la rugi klu terlupe mende2 ni kan..ye, sy mmg sentimental..huhu.

the very first time sy berjumpe ngn En Hubby adalah mase Latihan Industri (LI). oh, tp sebelum tu nk citer dulu la mcm mne dpt wat LI kat MSET Shipbuilding nih.

sy apply byk tmpat utk LI n yg sy plg nk mase tu of course kt SIRIM la kan. kebetulan mase tuh ade coursemate sy yg dpt kat sirim tuh dh tolak offer tu. so sy cpt2 email SIRIM nk replace tmpat kawan sy nih. lepas tuh sy call la sirim nk follow-up kan, and org yg jawab panggilan tu kate 'xboleh'..sedih n frust la sy mase tu sbb sy nk sgt praktikal kt sirim.

then, sy try plak call MSET yg awal2 dh reject sy sbb diorg x amik budak praktikal pompuan katenye. mase tu sy direct call En Yusof, the operation manager (sy dpt no ni dr mkcik sy y bersungguh2 nk tlg dptkan tmpt praktikal kt Tganu), sy tnye die leh x sy nk praktikal kt situ. die tnye sy org mane, and tnye sy mmg xdpt tmpat lain ke? sy cakapla xdpt..
pastu die ckp "okla, nnti tunggu surat tawaran"

tula citernye mcm mne dpt mset. sy pon dh lupe tarikh sy start praktikal (see, dh lupe!). yg sy igt last paper exam third year, mlm tu sy naik bas balik KT. lusenye dh start praktikal. klu xsilap bln 3 kot.

ironically, the first day sy praktikal kt mset, sy dpt call dr sirim. quite surprised la coz that day they told me i wasnt accepted. maybe org yg jawab cal sy ari tuh bkn org yg in-charged kot. kind of misunderstanding la nih..nk wat camne, kire xd rezeki la kan.

mule2 praktikal mmg xbestla. sbb bertiga jek (lg 2 org ialah coursemate sy jugak - sarip n nuar). mmg ade projek (model bot) yg nk dibuat, tp klu buat cpt2, nnti last2 dh xde keje plak an..so we took our own sweet time la to finish it. biasenye ptg2 baru g site nk buat bot tuh.

4/4/05:
hari tuh tah kenape - sy tertido plak kt ofis. sebelum ni sy xpenah plak tdo kt ofis ni. mase sy tertido tuh, si GM masuk ofis kitorang nk perkenalkan 2 org lg dak praktikal dr UTM. huhu. malunyer sy. terkantoi plak.

tula detik pertemuannye. salah sorg dak UTM tula my hubby :).

mule2 nmpak die, sy x berkenan langsung. hehe. mcm xbest jek mamat ni, mcm poyo jek. and mcm2 la prasangka yg muncul.

satu ari, die dtg lmbat. sy nmpak die dtg naik skuter kaler purple mase sy tgh jln nk gi assembly pg (pg2 kilang ni ade assy n senaman). mase tu sy mmg teringn nk naik skuter. sy pon tnyela leh x nk pinjam skuter. pastu kite jadi rapat la...

lepas tuh ofis jd makin meriah la dgn pertambahan lg sorg dak kuittho n 2 org dak politeknik. sume laki, sy sorg jek pompuan. sian sy...nasib baik diorg tuh okay2 sume so we got along pretty well. salu lunch same2 tp yg sy igtla kan, en hubby ni jarang join lunch ngn kitorg. die salu balik mkn kt umah (umah die dkt jek ngn kilang).

mcm tu jela kot spjg praktikal. dlm 7 org tu, sy plg rapat ngn die la. sbb die mcm caring n sy mcm lebih selesa ngn die..

mase tu xde bercinta2 lagi..kawan2 jek..hehe. so that's almost all about it.

the moral value is - sometimes we dont get things we wished for because Allah has a better plan for us. that's why i didnt get to do the LI at SIRIM because I was meant to meet my husband at MSET :)