Wednesday, August 23, 2017

All We Need Is A Different Perspective

That day I cracked my head thinking on how to re-organize kitchen stuffs on the very limited space of my table top to add in the water filter. The never ending problem is always - the space.

The thing that consumes most of the space is the bulky dish-dryer. At first I was thinking about moving it to the so-called working table which is on the other side of the kitchen but then, it wouldn't be practical not to place it next to the dish-washing sink, right?

Finally I decided to just change the angle of the dryer to make room for the water filter. And after that, not only the space problem has been  solved, but also the dishes loading problem I had since forever. I am now able to arrange the dishes without having to step on a stool anymore. Plus the pulling of blind string became easier because all these while the dish-dryer was in the way.

I actually solved three problems just by changing the angle of the dish-dryer.


In a way, I am relating this in life's everyday challenge - sometimes we don't have to remove things. Or even move things away. Some changes don't have to be big or drastic to make an impact. 

A little change of perspective might do the trick.

The problem with us is - sometimes we get too comfortable with our everyday routine, and even tolerated discomfort because we get so used to it. We don't want to consider about any adjustment, because change seems scary.  We thought we have to change the whole thing, the big things and start over when what we actually need is just a little twist of perspective.

Tuesday, August 22, 2017

The Emoji Movie

Lepas tengok cerita ni, aku rasa kesian dekat emoji-emoji yang kita tak pernah guna tu, maka aku pun cari emoji-emoji tersebut dan cuba untuk guna mereka-mereka tu. Haha, itulah moral value yang aku dapat dari movie ni.

Movie ni memang comel, walaupun orang seat depan siap berdengkur padahal movie baru main seetengah jam. Mostly pasal perjalanan emoji yang malfunction nak keluar dari app dia (something like Whatsapp) untuk pergi ke Cloud supaya dapat re-program diri dia jadi normal. 

Okaylah, my verdict: amusing. Some parts are too cute to handle. And cerita pasal benda yang berlaku dalam smartphone, so memang terasa dekat di hati *eh, ke dekat di tangan? 

Quote of the movie:
"What's the point of being number 1 if there are no any other number?"

Saturday, August 19, 2017

Karaoke ke?

I think I must have a say on this. Haha nak jugak kepochi hal-hal retis ni kan. Eh, masuk prime time evening news apa, so kira masalah negara dah tu (roll eyes emoticon).

Issue tu dah macam melalut-lalut je rasanya. And biasalah bila dah kantoi, macam- macam ceritalah nak defend dan counter-attack. Cuba kalau tak kantoi?? It'd be a whole different story already.

I don't know the whole story and not intended to know pun. Cuma baru ni tengok video yang the wife recorded to back up the husband bila ada orang komen macam-macam dan kecam husband dia. Entahlah. I think she must be tired. Sedih tu tak payah ceritalah kan.

And I wonder,  bila benda-benda macam ni jadi, can man (read: the husband) ever imagine what misery they've caused to their partner? The pain and humiliation that the wife has to face? Suami buat hal - tu dah satu hal. Nak maafkan tu, satu hal lagi. Lepas tu, tambah lagi - sampai ke sudah the wife kena pertahankan pulak the husband. The husband yang in the first place pergi cari pasal.

Yelah, dia dah mintak maaf. But does it end there? Tak pun, kan? Okay, okay, makcik emo haha. 

I have some advice to the girls. Please please please put your guard up when you're around suami orang. (Or even boyfriend atau tunang orang pun). In case diorang ajak u pergi lepak-lepak minum-minum makan-makan BERDUA dengan alasan "bukannya ada apa- apa pun. Lepak / minum / makan je pun", you always have the choice to say NO.

It always started with "bukan ada apa-apa pun". And yang I paling tak paham,  kalau betul tak ada apa-apa, apa perlunya buat aktiviti tu semua - berdua? 

Dahlah. Bebel banyak-banyak pun, I guess, kalau orang memang jenis tak kisah nak rampas bf/tunang/suami orang, dia peduli apa kan? 

Owh, nak kena clarify jugak. I tulis ni based on cerita artis pergi karaoke tu. Kang ada yang pi tanya husband I pulak kenapa I tulis benda-benda ni adoiii. Nauzubillah.

Friday, August 18, 2017

Pusingan U

What's wrong with making u-turns if it means making up for your past mistakes?

What's so wrong with making u-turns if it gets you to the right destination?

What's wrong with u-turns?

On an unrelated note, I selalu je buat u-turn kat tempat yang tak boleh u-turn ehehe. Asalkan tak susahkan orang on the other side, apa salahnya.

Thursday, August 17, 2017

The Lost soul

I am here
 (but I am not exactly here)

I was there
  (but I was not exactly there, either)

This is just me
filling up the void in a space
and a blank space is never a home

I am just flesh and bones
bound to titles and roles

but underneath
I am nothing
but a lost soul

Disclaimer: All poems may be or may not be from my own experience. Some are merely from observationsJust chill, don't speculate 😝😝

Wednesday, August 16, 2017

The Dark Tower

Since movie ni baru lagi tayang, maka aku tulih sikit-sikit jelah kang spoiler pulak ehehe.

Kalau ikutkan genre fantasy macam ni memang not my cup of tea, but because of these two reasons, pergilah jugak tonton.

1. Matthew McConaughey
2. Dapat redeem tiket free

Based on Stephen King's novel - The Gunslinger. 

Walaupun Matthew McConaughey jadi orang jahat, tapi okaylah. Story line macam slow sikit tapi makin lama makin geram dengan Matthew tu.. Jahat bebenor dia tu (tak ingat pulak nama watak dia dalam tu), so jadi tak sabar nak tunggu scene dia kalah sebab macam impossible je nak kalahkan dia.

Tapi part The Gunslinger (yang datang dari dunia lain) masuk ke dunia Bumi ni, rasa macam banyak je dah tengok scenes macam tu kat movie lain. 

Kalau ada sequel ni rasanya tak pi tengok dah kot. Eh, ye ke?

Monday, August 14, 2017

Bukan Dungu

Bukan Dungu

"Aku bukan dungu yang sakit
yang jatuh tetap tak mahu bangkit

Aku bukan dungu yang gila
yang luka tetap tunggu dipersenda

Aku bukan dungu yang tak malu
ditinggal tapi masih tertunggu

Aku bukan dungu

Aku hanya
tetap mahu kamu"

For the broken souls.

The hardest part is always to let go,
But let go, anyway.

Disclaimer: All poems may be or may not be from my own experience. Some are merely from observationsJust chill, don't speculate 😝😝

Saturday, August 12, 2017

Middle Age

I have always wondered what it's like to be in the middle-aged group. So this is it, wonder no more. arghhh. Not in the youth age anymore (although, to be honest, I haven't really felt like one, denial maybe, or still young at heart maybe 🙄)

Ada cerita perihal umur ni. Awkward situation, I must say. But on a second thought, malas pulak nak menulis pasal tu, takut terkena tulah haha.

So, I'm one year older today. Alhamdulillah. Masih diberi peluang bernafas, bergerak dan berusaha. Here's to another year wiser, InsyaAllah.

Wednesday, August 9, 2017


*spoiler alert*

I'd give 10 stars for this movie. For this kind of genre, I don't need to know or like any of the actors, I'd still definitely watch it. Owh, ada sorang budak One Direction in it but I don't remember his name.

It's based on a true event in World War II which was called "Dunkirk Evacuation" (I googled this in the cinema when the screen suddenly went white for almost half an hour. Not sure what was the technical issue, but we waited anyhow. Sabar tak sabarlah, haha)

Basically, the story line was divided into three parts - the jetty, the air and the sea which towards the end of the movie, they intersected each other. Brilliant story line, I must say. Although for one of the part, it ended sadly...why???

The climax part was when all the little ships reached the beach to save the armies. The kind of scenes that send shivers to your spine. And knowing that it really did happen in the past, I was totally in awe. Big salute to the British who mostly came all the way, unequipped with any  military weapon,  full aware that they were risking their life and yet still answer the call to help those trapped armies. Most of them came and helped bringing the soldiers back home with just regular fishing and merchant boats and pleasure yachts, etc etc. Respect betul.

I love the brief conversation of an old volunteer who's handing out blankets to the armies:

Volunteer: Good job, son.
Soldier: All we did was survive.
Volunteer: That's enough.


And that's one thing about war movie - they never fail to convey the message of humanity so beautifully in it. Although in reality, if there is enough humanity in all of us, I bet there wouldn't be any war around us anymore. Because there's nothing human about war in the first place.

Just saying.

Tuesday, August 8, 2017


The problem is that we rely too much on the pain-killers. Rather than to treat the root cause of the pain.
Literally or not.


I am addicted
     because I don't want to feel the pain

I'm in denial
     so I don't have to deal with the pain

I need you
As anesthetic, although temporary
As camouflage, although it's not real

I need you
   because I'm addicted
   because I'm in denial

And I need you
so bad.

Disclaimer: All poems may be or may not be from my own experience. Some are merely from observationsJust chill, don't speculate 😝😝

Friday, August 4, 2017

Nampak Baik vs Jadi Baik

Something to ponder:

1.Kalau nak NAMPAK baik, kita akan suka bagi nasihat.

2. Kalau nak JADI baik, kita akan suka dengar nasihat.

Bukanlah tak bagus bagi nasihat pada orang lain, tapi pada masa yang sama kalau kita tak suka orang tegur salah kita / nasihatkan kita, maksudnya kita tergolong golongan yang pertama tadi.

-Prof Muhaya-

Thursday, August 3, 2017

Kahlil Gibran's Treasured Writings

I am not much of a reader. But from time to time, I force myself to read so that my mind won't be so idle.

It took me 4 months to finish reading this book.  It was not an easy read for me.  With its heavy content and the limited vocab of mine - payah bebenor nak fokus.

And then it took me another months to write this so-called review ehehe, reviewlah sangat.

It's a compilation of Kahlil Gibran' many writings and there are also his letters to his friends. Memang hebatlah, tulis surat pun guna bahasa tinggi.

But there's something about it - when I found out that most of his original writings was actually in Arabic, I felt slightly upset because all these while I was reading his material in English.  Because to me, the translations normally will not do the original masterpiece justice, tu macam frust sikit terasa.

Take the Vitagen's tagline for an instance:
"Be good to your gut" but when it's translated to BM, it becomes "Sayangi sistem penghadaman anda"

Haha. Bagi contoh Vitagen pulak. Okaylah, ambik contoh yang acah deep sikit.

"A friend in need is a friend indeed" = "Kawan yang baik adalah kawan yang ada sewaktu kita memerlukan"

See? The translation wording is not as precise and on spot as the original one even though it carries out the same meaning. But anyhow, yes, even translated to English, his masterpiece is still beautifully conveyed. Imagine reading in its original version.. 

But all in all, aside from the artistic content, it's informative as well. There are some historical and geographical info in the book. Like how the opening of Suez Canal had affected the Middle East's economic in the 19th century that forced most of the people to migrate to other countries, including US for a better living. (or was this actually covered in Form 5's History subject? sorry, Sejeq's totally not my favorite subject back then)

*please excuse the blurriness of this pic since it was taken using phone yang kena tumpahan minyak*

Wednesday, August 2, 2017



Kalau parah
terus menadah

Kalau parah
terus bertabah

Kalau parah
bukan pasrah.

Disclaimer: All poems may be or may not be from my own experience. Some are merely from observationsJust chill, don't speculate 😝😝

Monday, July 31, 2017

Buat Baik - Untuk Apa

Buat Baik - Untuk Apa

Buat baik
biarlah walau tak dihargai

Buat baik
bukan untuk disayang manusia

Buat baik
untuk Allah

Buat baik
untuk bekalan di sana

Biarlah berpenat di dunia
biarlah disakiti manusia

Dunia bukan apa-apa
Manusia bukan apa-apa.

Friday, July 28, 2017

Nota Raya IV

Syawal dah habis dah pun tapi tiba-tiba terperasan this one in the Draft box.

So post jugaklah walaupun dah tak bulan raya.

Aku tak tahulah kenapa tahun ni punya doa selepas solat raya tu sangat-sangat terkesan kat hati ni. Dengan esakan Imam sambil berdoa tu, dengan setiap doa yang dimohon tu, menggigil rasa badan aku tahan airmata. Nanti kalau dah termenangis susah pulak nak stop. Orang sebelah kiri dan kanan aku memang dah teresak-esak dah. Tak pernah seumur hidup feeling macam tu pagi-pagi raya. Sayu dan sebak sangat. 

Mungkin selama ni tak berapa khusyuk dengar khutbah dan masa doa pun fikiran melayang-layang je kot. Lepas tu, terdetik jugak kat hati aku, husband aku rasa yang sama macam ni tak ek?

Lepas solat, on the way balik, my BIL and my husband duk ulas pasal Imam yang menangis masa doa tadi. Diorang kata Imam tu menangis sebab anak dia tak balik raya tahun ni, sebab tak nampak kelibat anaknya kat masjid tu.  Dan lagi, selalunya tahun-tahun sebelum ni, si anaklah yang imamkan solat raya kat masjid tu.

Adoi, diorang ni!! Bukannya nak syahdu-syahdu di pagi raya, bergosip pulak. Langsung kontra dengan perasaan aku tadi, haha. 

Wednesday, July 26, 2017

Retak Satu

It's hard to throw you away when you decide to break yourself so beautifully. Feels like I can still use you (cry emoticon).

Dia pecah sendiri secara tiba-tiba. Okay, maybe aku tersilap letak masa susun kat dishdryer tu yang mana rasanya ada terlebih tekanan sikit dekat bucu dan propagate crack dari situ. Tapi terkejut tiba-tiba tak semena-mena dengar bunyi kaca pecah. Cari-cari dari mana datang bunyi tu, tengok-tengok dah terbelah dua macam tu.

Dahlah rumah ni memang sedia kurang pinggan mangkuk, pecah pulak lagi. Kalau dia pecah berderai memang dah lama buang. Tapi bila pecah macam ni, tak sampai hati lagi nak buang. Haha, unnecessary dilemma, I know, I know.

Tuesday, July 25, 2017

What Would You Say

To those who suffer silently.

What Would You Say?

You sat quietly in that little corner
     every bitterness life threw you
your eyes all teared up
but you didn't cry
and you didn't say a word

when your mask lifted
perhaps you're too exhausted
    from all the pretending
I can see you're hurting,
     your wounds and your scars
but still, you didn't say a word
Tell me, though

   those unspoken words
      do they kill you inside?

   and all those pain in your eyes
      does it make you strong?
      or does it make you numb?

    all the sorrow you've been hiding
         does it lay up in your heart
         as metal shields
              or as dark clouds?

Cause I wonder
what if you can speak up
what would you say?

Disclaimer: All poems may be or may not be from my own experience. Some are merely from observationsJust chill, don't speculate 😝😝

Sunday, July 23, 2017

RIP, Chester

Found out about the news yesterday. Sejak tak ada FB, insta ni memang terketinggalan sungguh rasanya. It felt so surreal, and a bit of heart-broken :(

Well, haven't listened much to Linkin Park's latest stuffs (except Castle of Glass). At some point, I thought they've broken up since Fort Minor. Tapi masa zaman kegemilangan mereka tu memang suka gila lagu-lagu diorang especially NUMB. Biasalah zaman remaja kita akan dengar lagu-lagu yang kita boleh relate to, kan? Which most of their songs were to me. Tapi tak ada beli kaset or CD sebab zaman tu dah start era MP3 so kumpul lagu diorang dalam PC je. Dan duk ulang-ulang dengar dekat WinAmp.

Anyway, read an article (shared by my sister) pasal last video they uploaded, one hour before Chester's death. It's called "Talking To Myself". So aku pun terus pi You Tube. Bila lagu nak start je, You Tube tu ter-off sendiri pulak. Hmm, goosebumps sangat.

And on the other note, bila makin ramai personel yang kita kind of grew up with pergi satu persatu, it kinda hit me. That we're growing old and one day, it'll be our turn, too. Semoga pengakhiran yang baik untuk kita semua.

RIP, Chester. Your legendary voice will always live on.

Saturday, July 22, 2017

Aisyah dan Zalikha

Okay, first of all nak bagitau dulu - bahawasanya ini adalah post sengal. Tak berfaedah langsung, maka kalau tak baca memang tak rugi sikit pun hahaha. 

Recently aku ada terdengar beberapa lagu yang nama perempuan tengah meletop kat radio. Two songs, to be exact - Aisyah dan Zalikha. Okay, here comes the sengal part. Aku kan, dari dulu lagi duk tunggu bilalah nak ada lagu Nurul Izza ni haha.

Antara jawapan yang aku dengar - susah kot nak sebut nama tu dalam lagu. Tak catchy lah tu maksudnya kan.

Tak kisahlah tu, sebab aku rasa, kalau ada orang buat lagu tu pun, tak tahu lepas ke tak nak putaq kat radio kan. Oppss.

Okay, dah. Publish.

Wednesday, July 19, 2017


I sprained my ankle last Sunday while playing badminton (cry emoticon). Mula-mula ingatkan macam biasa so lepas terpeleot tu, rehat kejap dan sambung main walaupun terhincut-hincut. Tapi malam tu macam makin sakit pulak. Nak berpijak tu macam terseksa sangat.

Aku ada Google jugak treatment untuk sprained ankle so nak share jugaklah kat sini. Ada method yang dipanggil RICE method - Rest, Ice, Compression, Elevate.

1. REST - Kena rehatkan kaki, tak boleh gerak banyak-banyak. Tang ni macam dah fail sikit sebab hari tu sambung main jugak lepas dah terpelecot tu.

2. ICE - kena tuam dengan ais untuk reduce swelling. Nasib baik kat rumah ni ada HOT/COLD PACK so senang sikitlah, letak je 20 minit dalam freezer lepas tu bolehlah tuam tempat yang bengkak. Do this every 1-2 hours for about 20 minutes.

3. Compression - kena balut atau letak bandage supaya dapat support kecederaan tu. Aku tak ada bandage jadi aku balut je pakai scarf, yang penting jangan ketat sangat. 

4.  ELEVATE - tinggikan kaki melebihi paras jantung. Ni boleh buat time ada peluang nak baring jelah.

Yang paling penting, jangan urut dalam masa 3 hari. Lega jugak bila baca ni sebab ada excuse tak pergi berurut ehehe. Sebab aku perasan dalam budaya Melayu ni, mesti nak kena cepat-cepat pergi urut kalau terseliuh, kan? Tengah sakit macam ni orang pegang pun dah rasa nak menjerit, kalau pergi urut tak tahulah. 

Ni semua hasil Google je. The best is of course, seek medical advice from the doctors lah kan sebab takut ade injury more than just normal sprain Nauzubillah. By the time I'm writing this (which will be auto-published as usual), I haven't seen the doctor yet. Still within 24 hours, tengoklah macam mana. 

Please pray for me.

Tuesday, July 18, 2017

Sampai Bila

"Sampai bila?" 

That would be the question.

However, there is an answer to this question that could be uttered in TWO very different tone:

"Sampai bila-bila"

One is in a HOPEFUL tone.
While the other one is in a HOPELESS tone.

Isn't it funny how a sentence can mean a lot of things?
A lot of a different thing.

Monday, July 17, 2017

Marriage Formula

This is from Yasmin Mogahed's Reclaim Your Heart (again).

The formula for a happy mariage is LOVE + RESPECT.

Naturally, the wife wants to be loved and the man wants to be respected.  So as for the wife, in order to be loved, you have to show respect.  And as for the husband, in order to be respected, you have to show love.

But the trick is - it has to be unconditional.

You cannot expect your wife to respect you first, then only you'll show her love. Or vice versa.  No, it won't work that way.  Because once the wife doesn't feel loved, she will respect you less. And vice versa.

So you have to give first.  After all, true love is UNCONDITIONAL, right?

Wednesday, July 12, 2017

Transformers: The Last Knight

Finally, got to watch it last weekend.

Well, I loved it ehehe. Despite the long duration, I stayed awake the whole time. Err, maybe because it's Mark Wahlberg la kot. And tertunggu-tunggu Optimus Prime yang lambat sangat nak muncul. But, the fighting scenes memang tak boleh blahhh.

Heroin tu aku tak kenal but she looks like Angelina Jolie, though. Dan ada Anthony Hopkins, I like jugak ehehe.

Yang pasti, there will be another sequel since Quintessa is not yet dead. Eh, spoiler ke? Opss.

I asked my husband, "If Transformer keeps making its sequel until we're 50,  would we still go and watch it?" Haha.

Well, probably yes.

Tuesday, July 11, 2017

Split Personality

It's funny how contrary two people see you.  It's like,  one sees you as white, the other sees you as black. *please don't take this racially*

Is it because some people know you very well while the other - not so well?

Or is it because they only see what they want to see in you?  Or do they see you as what they think you are? Or they see the reflection of themselves in you?


Is it because they never bother to really see you?

Monday, July 10, 2017

The Messed-Up(s)

I think the reason why the world is so messed up today is because everybody's goal is to WIN.

It doesn't matter anymore how many people we've hurt, as long as we WIN.

Nobody really wants to do good anymore.
Nobody really wants to be good anymore.

Because somehow, goodness is always NOT exponential to winning.

We are all afraid of being left behind. Of being cast aside. Of not fitting in.

I pray that one day, we all have the courage to choose goodness. Instead of winning.

Friday, July 7, 2017

Ketupat Nasi

Ni cerita pre-raya hari tu.  Sampai kampung lebih kurang pukul 11 malam. Lepas makan, sembang-sembang sikit, terus bawak daun kelapa ni masuk dalam bilik maklumlah dah gian bebenor nak anyam ketupat setelah bertahun-tahun tak praktikkan skill. Tapi cuba-cuba, tak menjadi-jadi. Hasilnya macam dalam gambar ni.  Kepala ketupat ni tak berjodohan, tak tahulah kenapa tersesat jalan satu ke barat satu ke timur.  Bila dah pukul 2 lebih tu barulah finally dapat the right pace, berjayalah anyam sebijik dengan betul.  Tapi memikirkan nak bangun sahur pukul 5 nanti, maka aku tidur jugaklah kejap.  

*ketupat tak jadi*

Lepas sahur sambung balik menganyam.  Gigih betul.  Sampai pukul 7, dapatlah beberapa bijik ni. Lepas tu kepala dah tingtong tak cukup tidur, maka sambung tidur balik haha.

*ketupat menjadi eheh*

Tuesday, July 4, 2017

Of Forgiveness - A New Perspective

It's still Raya month and Raya is all about forgiveness.  Or at least, that is what it's SUPPOSED to be.

I think in this blog I always confess that I am so NOT a forgiving person. Not that I didn't try, but it's just something that was quite impossible for me to do. Not that I took revenge or anything, I just let it consumed my heart for years until one day it doesn't anymore.  Because I thought if they're forgiven, it was as if they got to get away with it, which was not fair.

But recently,  I heard one of Yasmin Mogahed's lecture on YouTube. In one of her lectures, she talked about forgiveness.

She mentioned that we need to forgive others that have wronged us not because of he/she deserves our forgiveness. In fact, that forgiveness actually has nothing to do with that person at all . The ultimate reason why we should forgive others is because we hope Allah will forgive us as well.  She added, that we should treat others the way we want Allah to treat us.

I am very, very thankful that I came across the lecture, I think in a way my prayers have been answered.  InsyaAllah, by thinking so,  I'd be able to forgive.

So, let's forgive, shall we?

Monday, July 3, 2017

Nota Raya III

Hehe banyak pulak nota raya.  Since the first nota raya was a bit negative, so let's make it up with the positive ones.

Since kahwin memang dah jadi macam rutin aku buat laksa johor bila turn raya rumah in-laws.  Saja nak menambahkan menu raya sebab first raya memang rumah in-laws ramai saudara datang dari pagi sampai petang non-stop.

Tapi tahun ni aku tak buat.  Dan ada a few (tak ramai pun eheh) yang tanya aku kenapa tahun ni tak ada laksa johor.

I don't know. Simple thoughts like that just warms up my heart.

It doesn't take a lot to make someone's day.  Sometimes all we have to be is - thoughtful.

Saturday, July 1, 2017

Nota Raya II

Pergi beraya beberapa hari lepas, ada yang bertanya "Kenapa lama tak nampak kat FB"

Alahai, terharu sangat makcik bila rupanya ada yang sedar kewujudan FB tu.

Tapi rasanya makcik dah patah hati dengan FB ehehe. Tengoklah kalau nanti-nanti ada hati lagi, re-activate balik. Kalau tak, taklah.

Thursday, June 29, 2017

Nota Raya

Wouldn't it be nice if everything ends the way the movie ends.  Especially the Raya telemovie.

Tak pelah.
One fine day.

Friday, June 23, 2017

Balik Kampung

Lusa dah raya. Jom balik Kampung 😀😀😀

Tengok adik-adik sent gambar-gambar persiapan raya, tak sabarnya nak join sekaki. Dah lama tak anyam ketupat, entah masih ada lagi ke tak skill tu.

Have a safe journey back home, everyone. Baju raya jangan lupa packing ehehe. Untuk yang tak ada kampung, enjoy your raya preparation 😊😊

Till later!

Wednesday, June 21, 2017

Cerita Jubah

Alkisah sepasang jubah.  Eh, sepasang ke? Dua pasanglah kot.

Yesterday I wore the jubah that I exchanged with my sister. And it made me think. On how things happen for a reason.

We happen to have almost the same taste in everything. And so in this jubah. She bought it first when it was first released and then sent to tailor for some length alteration. Entah macam mana, tailor tersilap potong, terpendek jadi jubah dia. So she had to wear another skirt inside to cover up the pendekness.

I on the on other hand, asyik bertangguh nak beli sampai tak sempat nak grab. Luckily they released 2.0 version. Cepat-cepatlah makcik pi beli takut kempunan lagi, and sent to tailor for alteration. Guess what? Mine was terpanjang, as if tailor tak pernah potong. With this petite size of mine, memang nak tersadung jelah jalan pakai jubah sapu jalan macam tu.

And then when my sister was in town, we decided to wear the same jubah (lain kaler, OK?) together-gether. Masa menggosok tu, masing-masing ceritalah on how the jubah tailor salah potong pendek sangat and how mine macam tailor tak potong langsung.

So we decided to just exchange them. And it fit us just perfectly! (My sister is taller than me)

Gambar tak adalah pulak nak share since we both are not the bergambar type.

So, everything that happened has its own purpose. Even it seems inconvenient at first, but in the end, we'll be amazed on how things work out perfectly.

Tuesday, June 20, 2017

When You Are Sad

Rasa nak mennagis bila dengar ni so I'm sharing it here. Semoga bermanfaat untuk kita semua.

The first question you have to ask yourself when you are sad, "How was my relationship with Allah?"

That relationship is connected to your salah, primarily your 5 daily prayers.
Do you read them with enthusiasm? We are not even talking about regularity because that is supposed to be the case, anyway. But we are talking about enthusiasm. Do you look forward to the prayer? Do you realize what you are doing when you are reading or fulfilling the five daily prayers?

Sit for a moment and think. It will snatch your sadness.  It will withdraw, it will combat the sadness you are feeling. just by thinking for a moment. "What am I doing? Who am I putting my head on the ground for here? Who is it? The One who made me, The One who owns my happiness, The One who's in control. And ultimately The One I'm going to go back to when my eyes close like everybody else's eyes have already closed and are closing and will close, I'm going to go back to the supreme deity whom I've just put my head on the ground for. Allahuakbar.

It is powerful. If you sit and ponder over it, that alone will help you to remove the sadness in your life because even if everything is going against your liking, you are assured that it is going according to the plan of  Allah.

Nothing goes according to someone else's plan.  It is Allah's plan. 

How can you be sad, when Allah is with us?

-Mufti Menk-

Wednesday, June 14, 2017

The Wall

Sometimes, we build a wall around us to protect ourselves from being hurt. 

But often, it is the wall that ends up hurting us. 
Trapping us. Crushing us.

Monday, June 12, 2017

I Will Always Love You

There is this one line of song that always keep popping in my mind, but I couldn't figure out what song it is:

 "I will always love you"

Until last night. While I was driving, the song was on the radio so I Googled it afterwards.

Rupanya Lovesong by The Cure.

Thursday, June 8, 2017

Happy 12th Year of Friendship !!!

Of Baju Raya and The Aftermath

Dah jadi kebiasaan beberapa tahun kebelakangan ni untuk settlekan baju raya sebelum Ramadhan. Jadi bulan puasa tak perlulah mengharung lautan manusia yang berjuang nak dapatkan baju raya.  Atau nervous tunggu Mr.Posmen tak sampai-sampai.

Tahun lepas tak ada perasaan ralat ni sebab baju-baju yang di pre-order before Ramadhan tu tak turun harga pun sampai Hari Raya.

Tahun ni, yang membuat ralat tu baju raya kedua. Dia release Raya Collection just before Ramadhan, and one of the collections memang sekali tengok dah berkenan di hati. Biasanya kalau dah jumpa yang berkenan di hati aku memang tak pandang lain dah. So belilah on that very day it was released. Semangat tak semangatlah haha. Masa tu introduction price ada less RM10.

So bila dah settle perihal baju raya maka tak adalah aku perlu melekakan diri dengan Instagram lagi untuk stalking survey baju raya bulan Ramadhan.  Gitu.

Tapi baru ni dapat tahu baju tu ada sale lagi. RM60 cheaper than what I purchased earlier.  Tambah sikit lagi dah dapat nilopa selai kot.  Takleh nak kata apa lah, maka mampu ber-huhu jelah. 

But, I quote my sister - that's the price you have to pay for buying baju raya early. Well, literally. Huhuhuhu.

So nak sedapkan hati, aku pujuklah hati ni, at least aku dah tak buang masa scrolling down Instagram lagi dah bulan ni. Which makes a difference to me. Rasa macam nak permanently detached from IG and FB pun ada jugak ni. Hehe, kononnyalah.

Tuesday, June 6, 2017

The Past, Not Future

When people decide not to include you anymore in their life, you too, need to stop talking about them in future tense.

Refer them in the past tenses.

Let them be in the past, where they choose to be.

No more will.
Just was.

Monday, June 5, 2017

Of Temporary Attachment

"There's something amazing about this life. The very same worldly attribute that causes us pain is also what gives us relief: Nothing here lasts. What does that mean? It means that the breathtakingly beautiful rose in my vase will wither tomorrow.  It means that my youth will neglect me. But it also means that the sadness I feel today will change tomorrow.  My pain will die.  My laughter won't last forever - but neither will my tears. We say this life isn't perfect.  And it isn't.  It isn't perfectly good.  But, it also isn't perfectly bad, either"

-Yasmin Mogahed, Reclaim Your Heart-

Friday, June 2, 2017

Peaceful Mind - Tips #2

Hari tu tengok cerita ke iklan apa tak ingat dah. cuma ingat ayat dia lebih kurang:

"Tak kisahlah apa orang nak fikir pasal kita. 
Yang penting Allah faham hati kita"

Betullah. Kadang-kadang letih hati dan otak nak puaskan hati semua orang. Lagi teruk bila apa yang kita letihkan sangat tu disalah ertikan pulak. Lepas dah letih, stress, kecewa dan sedih pulak.

Itulah jadinya kalau hidup asyik nak puaskan hati orang. 

Sebab kadang-kadang orang kalau dah tak suka, kita buat apa pun nampak tak betul. Gitulah.

Maka kita bertenang jelah. Buat yang terbaik, dan harap yang baik-baik. Yang penting kita tahu kita tak pernah nak susahkan siapa-siapa. Tak pernah nak aniaya siapa-siapa. Kena selalu check dan bersihkan hati. Jangan syok sendiri ingat diri kita ni baik sangat.

 The root of all, cari keredhaan Allah. 

Thursday, June 1, 2017

Puasa So Far

It's 6th day of Ramadhan.

So far, tak ada kena gastric attack except for first day puasa but it was not that bad. Sakit kepala yang teruk-teruk pun tak ada. Maybe sebab a few days before puasa tu dah stop coffee intake so that bulan puasa tak adalah caffeine withdrawal symptoms. Adalah sakit pinggang dalam 2 hari tapi cuba praktikkan tips letak bantal kat belakang area pinggang masa baring, alhamdulillah it worked.

Hopefully this year's Ramadhan will be better in terms of ibadah and health.

Bazar Ramadhan dah pergi dua kali tapi dua-dua pun kat kampung. Tapi tahun ni excitement pergi bazar tu macam dah tak ada. Kalau kat Terengganu pun dah rasa macam tu, kat negeri orang ni lagilah.

Here's to a better ramadhan, insyaAllah.

Monday, May 29, 2017

Ikan Percik

Pejam celik, pejam celik, dah pun bulan puasa lagi.

Alhamdulillah berpeluang bertemu Ramadhan lagi. Semoga ibadah tahun ni lebih cemerlang berbanding tahun-tahun lepas.

Okay, mukaddimah mesti kaw-kaw. Padahal nak share resepi je pun. Bolehlah dicuba kalau-kalau buntu tak tahu nak masak apa untuk berbuka. Resepi yang simple tapi hasil yang wow!

Nah resepi Ikan Percik. Bila tambah kerisik tu memang sedap menjilat jari. Tapi macam biasa bahan-bahan tu kena agak-agaklah.

*Resepi from my adik ipar.

- Bawang putih, halia dan bawang merah dikisar
- Cili kisar
- Serai
- Kunyit hidup ditumbuk (kalau tak ada, kunyit serbuk pun boleh)
- Kerisik
- Belacan
- Gula melaka
- Santan
- Asam keping
- Garam
- Ikan dilumur garam dan dibakar terlebih dahulu


Tumis bahan-bahan kisar.
Masukkan serai dan cili kisar sehingga pecah minyak.
Masukkan kerisik, belacan, kunyit, gula melaka.
Masukkan santan dan asam keping.
Garam secukup rasa.
Tuangkan ke atas ikan yang telah dibakar tadi.

p/s: Selain ikan, boleh juga diganti dengan ayam.

Thursday, May 25, 2017

Kari Ikan Mamak style

I got this recipe from my sister. So the credit goes to her. First attempt of this type of curry which is without santan. And it turned out to be sedap! Ehehe. No, I mean the recipe, not my cooking.


Bahan kisar : Halia dan bawang putih
Bawang besar (dimayang)
Bunga lawang
Buah pelaga
Kayu manis
Daun kari
Serbuk kari ikan (Adabi + Babas)
Cili kisar
Ikan (ikut suka)


1. Tumiskan cengkih, bunga lawang, buah pelaga dan kayu manis hingga naik bau.
2. Masukkan bahan kisar ( halia dan bawang putih) hingga naik bau.
3. Masukkan bawang besar.
4. Masukkan daun kari dan kentang
5. Masukkan cili kisar
6. Masukkan ikan
7. Masukkan serbuk kari yg dah dibancuh
8. Masukkan sikit air
9. Tunggu mendidih
10. Masukkan tomato (potong 4)
11. Masukkan garam
12.Kalau nak lagi pedas, masukkan cili kering yang dipotong
13. Siap

p/s: In case terlebih pedas, boleh masukkan asam jawa untuk balancekan rasa dia.

p/p.s: Gambar belum ada almaklumlah pakai handphone murah gambar berjerebu malas nak upload.

Wednesday, May 24, 2017

My Subconscious

I don't really talk about you
  don't really have your pictures in my phone
          or in my stupid social media gallery

I don't really call you
  don't really ask about your days

And they wonder do you matter to me
                  at all

Darling, don't you listen to them

You know you are my subconscious

you are always there
   in my mind

even when I don't think of you.

Disclaimer: All poems may be or may not be from my own experience. Some are merely from observations. Just chill, don't speculate.

Tuesday, May 23, 2017

My Rock

I printscreen-ed this from Yasin's instagram after the news of Chris Cornell's death. 

The words speak my mind about a certain phase that I've been through and how songs have helped me pushed through it.

"They've helped us moved on.
They've pushed us out of bed.
They've helped us live when nobody else had the time to.
Artists have inspired us in endless ways and have been with us through stages in our lives"

I had my dark moments. Moments when I felt so lost but couldn't tell anyone about it. It was depressing. I had lost interest in everything. All I wanted to do was sleep. And of course, it did affect my studies back then.

Along side with other 'self-treatment' there were also two major things that helped me get through that phase - Coldplay and Sheila On 7. I remembered listening to them every day and in a way I felt like I wasn't alone. Their songs soothed and accompanied me, along with my struggle to get better. They were not self-help songs but it was as if someone telling me that "You've got this. You will be okay".

I'm sure I am just one out of million others they've helped and inspired . But THANK YOU!!

Sunday, May 21, 2017

Random Act of Kindness #2

Al-kisah pergi breakfast pagi tadi.

Masa tengah tunggu makanan sampai, ada kakak datang kemaskan meja dan angkat pinggan-pinggan customer sebelum ni. 

Tiba-tiba dia cakap "Duduk dulu ye". Aku pun senyum jelah sebab memang tengah duduk pun kan. Lepas tu dia tanya lagi "Tak sihat ke? Muka macam demam"

Hehe. Memang pagi tadi mata macam bengkak sikit tak tahulah terkurang tidur ke, terlebih tidur ke. Tapi sihat je sebenarnya.

But the point is, kita tak tahu apa yang kita cakap tu kadang-kadang boleh beri impak kat orang lain, even strangers. jadi berkata-kata baiklah selalu. Macam kakak tadi. Kadang-kadang memang mood aku ni gloomy je pagi-pagi, tapi bila orang concern macam tu, barulah rasa macam 'terbangun' sikit.

Berkata-kata yang baik tu pun sedekah, kan?


Friday, May 19, 2017


Something to ponder:
"Do you really want to be happy? You can begin by being appreciative of who you are and what you've got"
-Benjamin Hoff-

Thursday, May 18, 2017

Wardrobe Clean-up

Ni clean up yang dah ke-berapa kali pun tak tahu dah ni. Dah lama start tapi tak setel-setel jugak.
Dulu masa zaman orang start pakai tudung express awning keras yang dipelopori Ariani tu, semua tudung bawal aku packed dan bagi orang. Sebenarnya bukanlah sebab ikut trend, tapi more to nak memudahkan hidup. Tudung tu kan tak perlu gosok dan sarung je, maka sesuai sangatlah dengan diri yang malas nak menghadap cermin pagi-pagi.

Aku dah berapa kali packed and unpacked balik koleksi tudung ekspress awning keras tu. Mula-mula ada rasa nak bagi orang tapi yelah, budak-budak muda sekarang kan ikut trend manalah ada yang nak pakai lagi tudung makcik-makcik ni. So for now, I'm keeping them so that this makcik can wear them to pasar.  Cuma masalahnya sekarang - storage pulak..adoiii. Tak tahu dah nak letak kat mana.

Okay, enough about that.

So, sekarang dah musim shawl pulak kan, be it instant shawl, semi-instant, long shawl, etc etc.. Even long shawl yang tak instant pun dah boleh pakai within 10 seconds sebab dah ada kaedah senang nak membelit . Dan tudung bawal pun is making its comeback. Yang bestnya tudung bawal sekarang dah murah dan tak jarang macam dulu-dulu.

The main reason I'm giving up those tudung awning keras tu this time is because of the size. Kalau boleh nak pakai yang a little bit wider than ngam-ngam. Jadinya, I opted for shawl sebab kalau pakai shawl kita boleh adjust kelabuhan tu.

Sekarang dah tak susah nak cari tudung yang compliant. Sellers nowadays are mostly aware with all the requirements, especially on the appropriate width and opacity of the tudung which is very good and convenient. So banyak dah choice. Kalau malas nak membelit, pakai je instant. Kalau tak nak pakai shawl, bawal pun dah berlambak yang bidang besar-besar. 

Bawal pun sangatlah senang nak manage. Nak basuh boleh campak je dalam washing machine. Lepas tu kalau pakai yang jenis printed tak payah gosok pun tak pe unless kalau garisan lipatan tu visible sangat.

So for me, bukanlah trend yang dikejar. Memang tak pernah ikut trend pun, cuma beralih arah bila ada yang lebih convenient. 

On a different note, I am confused with the term "bawal". I read it somewhere before that bawal is originated from the word Voile, a fabric material in cotton family. Material kain tudung bawal yang mula-mula dulu tu lah. Tapi sekarang kenapa yang material satin pun dipanggil bawal jugak? Kalau disebabkan dia bersegi empat, sepatutnya panggil square scarf kan? Ke info yang bawal-voile ni salah?

Friday, May 12, 2017

The One Who Dies Believing The Lies

"The One Who Dies
   Believing The Lies"

One thing about truth
it hurts when it hurts

As much as we want to be right
          we could be wrong, too

Could we be among the strong ones
to admit being the wrong one
           the mean one
           the bad one

Because if we are not
we'd just continue on living
    defying the truth
    believing the lies

There is nothing wrong being wrong
if we embrace the lesson
to learn
      and to grow

And there's nothing right about being right
if it only makes us full of ourselves;
if in the end
all we do is
      hurting others

Especially those who care
those who love
those who sacrifice
those we choose to forget

Sometimes all we have to do
is to look around more
to search for life outside our own
so that we can finally see
that things are not always about us
that others matter, too

Especially those who were there for us
      maybe not in the way we'd like them to
      maybe in a way we'd never understand
      maybe in the only way they could

Because the truth is
we are not always perfect
we are not always right
and we are not always the victim

It could have been worse
    than living in lies

we could die in vain
      believing the lies

I Remember

I think at some point, we are all broken.

And this is especially for those who are now in a grieving state out of a break-up (of any kind of relationships) and feeling helpless,  let me brief you through the process.

Although this is not really a manual of "How To Heal A Broken Heart", somehow, I believe the process is the same for all of us. We take our own time, sometimes it may take years, but at least we're progressing. 

We hit rock bottom, hurt and broken. But the most important step after that is wanting to heal. You have to WANT to get better.

Don't worry too much, girls (or even guys). Don't be so sad. Remember that it's just a phase that you will get over with one day. 

I Remember

I remember
being so much in love
and yet
       feeling all broken
I remember
   standing from afar
   watching you
   with someone else

I remember
   telling myself
   "I am not good enough
   not pretty enough
   not enough"

I remember
    saying goodbye to 'us'
 the 'us' that never existed to you

I remember
   crying in the middle of the nights
   missing you

I remember
    struggling to wake up
  every morning

I remember
     faking a smile
 just to get through the day

I remember
       feeling dead inside

And then
   I remember deciding
   it had to stop

   I remember picking up the pieces

   I remember standing up

   I remember walking
       stumbling, but walking

   I remember re-gaining
        what was lost in me

   I remember healing


And I remember
  forgetting you.

Disclaimer: All poems may be or may not be from my own experience. Some are merely from observationsJust chill, don't speculate 😝😝

Thursday, May 11, 2017

Of Survival and Humanity

Of Survival and Humanity

I turn on the TV
    nothing much on the screen
but wars and crimes
tears and blood.

It just keeps going on
         and on
like one human life
doesn't cost even a dime

As if it's unstoppable
as if it's inevitable

Is it the silence of the good
or is it in the hands of the crook?

Either way
   the world is dying, anyway

For one with no greed
   will never lead

But one with no mercy
    will rule society

And I wonder
  what's in it for the rest of us?

A pure human heart
  will never tolerate violence
should we then give up humanity
         to survive?

A true sane mind
   will never condone brutality
should we then give up sanity
        to stay alive?

But is it worth surviving
    in a world without humanity

Can we even call it a living
    in a world without sanity

Sunday, May 7, 2017

Kacang Pool haji

First time makan dekat kedai dia. Selalu makan dekat Medan Selera yang sebelah balai bomba Larkin tu. Actually kedai tu berdekatan je dengan medan selera tu. Cuma tak tahulah kenapa sebelum ni kalau Google Map atau Waze Kacang Pool Haji, mesti dia akan bawak ke Medan Selera tu.

So tipsnya, cuba search SRJK (C) Foon Yew 3, Larkin sebab kedainya memang betul-betul seberang jalan sekolah tu. Kalau dari balai bomba, sekolah di sebelah kiri, kedai Kacang Pool haji ni di sebelah kanan.

Selain kacang pool, ada jugak menu lain seperti di gambar. Dan yang menarik dekat sini ada pilihan daging kambing untuk kacang pool. Kalau dekat medan selera tu rasanya tak ada daging kambing.

Friday, May 5, 2017

Random Act of Kindness

Salam Jumaat.

Sebenarnya tak susah pun nak buat baik kan? Mungkin cita-cita yang terlalu tinggi nak mengubah dunia kononnya, maka terlepas pandang akan kuasa kebaikan-kebaikan yang kecil. Walaupun kecil tapi impaknya besar. Tetap mengubah dunia. Dunia seseorang.

Alkisah hari tu pergi Jusco  sorang-sorang shopping barang dapur . Mula-mula perasan tough, malas nak cari troli (bila tengok kat tempat troli tu kosong). Rasa macam mampu je angkat barangan tu. Tapi bila dah menapak ke tempat parking, nak tercabut lengan dan bahu rasanya (okay, exaggerating much). Dahlah kita sejenis yang suka parking jauh-jauh, konon-konon nak dapatkan khasiat exercise berjalan tu.

Dan dekat parking lot memang bersepah-sepah troli yang ditinggalkan, maka terus letak je groceries items dalam troli pertama yang dijumpai. Tapi tulah, memang selalu sangat dah berjodohan dengan troli yang alignment roda dia lari entah ke mana. Struggle lah di situ nak pastikan troli berada di jalan yang lurus.

Tiba-tiba ada satu couple yang lebih berusia dari belakang senyum-senyum. Yang perempuan tolong tarik troliku sampai lah ke kereta. Segan dan serba-salah sebab dia lebih berusia. Tapi pada masa yang sama bersyukur sangat-sangat.

Nampak simple je pertolongan tu but actually it helped a lot. So I'm reminding myself to be more observant of my surroundings next time around. In case someone is in need of help. Ni tak, sokmo jalan menonong je tak hiraukan persekitaran*dush, dush kat diri sendiri..


Tuesday, May 2, 2017

Songs and Moments #1 [Eternity]

#2 - Eternity by Robbie William

Close your eyes so you don't feel them
They don't need to see you cry
I can't promise I will heal you
But if you want to I will try

I'll sing this somber serenade
The past is done
We've been betrayed
It's true
Someone said the truth will out
I believe without a doubt
In you

You were there for summer dreaming
And you gave me what I need
And I hope you find your freedom
For eternity
For eternity

Yesterday when you were walking
We talked about your mom and dad
What they did to make you happy
What they did to make you sad
We sat and watched the sun go down
Picked a star before we lost the moon
Youth is wasted on the young
Before you know it's come and gone too soon

You were there for summer dreaming
And you gave me what I need
And I hope you find your freedom
For eternity
For eternity

For eternity
I'll sing this somber serenade
The past is done
We've been betrayed
It's true
Youth is wasted on the young
Before you know it's come and gone too soon

You were there for summer dreaming
And you are a friend indeed
And I hope you find your freedom
For eternity

You were there for summer dreaming
And you are a friend indeed
And I hope you find your freedom
For eternity
For eternity

This song will bring me back to the Terminal Bas Butterworth dekat jeti feri tu. Masa tu terminal tu dah terbakar. Year 2001. Masa matriks. Tak ingat sem berapa. Tapi ingat suasana petang tu. Bersama dengan budak-budak Gang Bilik Belakang (haha nama gang tak boleh blah) yang balik kampung bas malam.

Lagu ni berkumandang masa kami jalan celah-celah kaunter bas. Bukannya tak pernah dengar lagu tu sebelum tu. Tapi entah kenapa bila dengar kat terminal masa tu, dia lekat dalam memori sampai sekarang.

Wednesday, April 26, 2017

Same Road, Different Shoes

Same Road, Different Shoes

        When you want people to love you
               but they don't
        when you don't want people to stop loving you
               but they just do

And what if the table turns?

         When you don't want people to love you
              but they do
         when you want people to stop loving you
              but they just don't

What's gonna be the question, then?

Which one hurts more?
Which one hurts less?

or rather;

Which one hurts?
Which one doesn't?

Disclaimer: All poems may be or may not be from my own experience. Some are merely from observationsJust chill, don't speculate 😝😝

Tuesday, April 25, 2017

Songs and Moments #1 [Temani Aku]

We all have that song(s) that specifically remind us of one specific moment every time we listen to it, right?

I have a few. Well, actually, a lot. So I'm going to make a list out of it in this blog.

#1 -  Temani Aku by Sheila on 7

Layaknya gelap malam
Yang indah karna bintang

Layaknya sang penyair
Yang elok karna puisi

Bagiku kau bintang
Selayaknya puisi
Tetaplah di sini peri kecilku

Bagiku kau bintang
Selayaknya puisi
Temani aku selamanya

This song reminds me of my journey with my family all the way from Terengganu to Penang the day before USM registration day back in 2002.

It was a very long journey.

My father played the SO7 album on the cassette player almost the whole journey. Yes, he liked SO7, too, influenced by me ehehe.

So every time I listen to it I'd remember how the 6 of us cramped in one car for more than 12 hours, the highways, the stops, the "are-we-there-yet" feelings.

And there were no Waze or Google Map whatsoever back then so, once we reached Penang, Abah had to ask around on how to get to Nibong Tebal.

I have to admit the memory was a little vague now, well, it's been 15 years. But some songs will never get old, right?

Saturday, April 22, 2017

Asam Pedas Kampung Sungai Melayu

One of the best Asam Pedas I've had. Gitu.

Lokasinya di area Gelang Patah. Boleh Google Map Asam Pedas Kampung Sungai Melayu.

Jalan nak ke tempat makan tu memang gelap, tak ada lampu jalan. Jalan pulak jalan kampung yang sempit kadang-kadang bila bertembung dengan kereta lain kena pandai-pandai bagi jalan. Kiri kanan kelapa sawit. Kami pergi lepas Maghrib maka boleh bayangkanlah suasana meredah hutan demi sesuap asam pedas.

But it's totally worth it. Makan sedap, harga pun okay, tak mahal. Kami makan asam pedas ikan merah RM14 untuk dua orang. 

Mula-mula sesat jugak tak jumpa pun kedai tu bila sampai kat Kampung Sungai Melayu. Cuak lah jugak. Entah kenapa teringat cerita Volkswagen Kuning tu pulak, haha, sengal.

Rupanya salah jalan. Kena follow signboard ke Dewan. Kedai tu memang betul-betul sebelah dewan. Tengahari diorang dah bukak so bolehlah pergi masa lunch hour. Selain asam pedas ada menu seafood lain, pun sedap. View pun cantik.

Gambar tak ada sebab tak ada mood bergambar masa tu.

Tuesday, April 18, 2017

Bank Simpanan Nasional (part II)

Actually, after all of these years of blogging, I just found out recently about this "Stat" thingy in the blogger dashboard. Rupanya kita boleh tengok blog visit kita daily, weekly, monthly. And even boleh tengok post mana yang ranked as the most-visited post.

**haha. makcik malu.

So, I noticed rupanya my post which was titled Bank Simpanan Nasional was among the most read ones. Why-lah? Seriously, ramai-ramai google Bank Simpanan Nasional tu, untuk apa ya?

Last time I talked about my personal experience to get the 3 months bank statements from BSN. Actually cerita tak habis. After blogging about my disappointment, I actually went to another branch of BSN, and surprisingly, I managed to get the statements on the spot. Of course ada charge-lah, tapi tak banyak pun, tak silap 50 cents each and they deducted from my account.

Kesimpulannya, sama macam kalau kita pergi "jabatan-jabatan tertentu", kalau kita jumpa Pegawai 1, beliau akan cakap begini begini. tapi bila kita jumpa pulak Pegawai 2, ehh, lain pulak jawapan dia. Maka jangan putus asa. Teruskan mencari jawapan sampai ke Pegawai berapa pun sampai ada jawapan yang sahih.

So, konsep yang sama lah dengan BSN ni, I guess. Pergi satu branch katanya begitu. Pergi branch lain, ehh, boleh pulak. Gitu.

So, no prejudice. Just keep looking for the answers / solutions. Walaupun macam bola ditolak ke sana ke sini. Hmm..

Monday, April 17, 2017


I bought her book "Puisi Tepi Jalan" at the Vendeur Festival back in 2015. And even got her autograph. One of her puisi in the book:

Pejam Bohong

dan semua akan aman.


-Fynn Jamal-

Simple words. Simple 6 words. Yet explains it all.

I like her words. I think in a way she's a genius to be able to put into words what most of us are unable to even comprehend.

I watch her last night when she went LIVE on Instagram and I did ask for some tips. And she replied! Haha.

Okaylah, tu je pun nak bebel.

Thursday, April 13, 2017


Dah a few weeks jugak tengok, baru ada mood nak tulis pasal movie ni.

I watched it because Emma Stone was in it. And because it's nominated for Oscar's Best Picture. I am so not into musical movies which is why I didn't watch it in cinema. Tengok CD boleh skip the singing parts ehehe.

I like the ending. It's nothing cliche like most of the movies. Sebastian (Ryan Gosling) and Mia (Emma Stone) met again, briefly, after being separated for years, but somehow they just moved on.

I think that's what the phrase of "We don't meet people by accidents. They crossed our path for a reason" is all about.

Their relationship didn't work out but they met each other to inspire each other to become what they want to become. Which they both did in the end.

So, I think that pretty much sums up the movie haha.

City of stars
Are you shining juts for me
City of stars
There's so much that I can't see
Who knows
I felt it from the first embrace I shared with you

Wednesday, April 12, 2017

..The Loss..In Memory Of A Friend..

I found this in draft section, it was something that I didn't finish writing back in the year of 2012.

So I think I'm publishing it, well, 5 years later. The original writing is in bold, blue, italic font.

*Started writing this on 19th May.
I might take a few days to finish writing this.
Don't really know how to start *sigh. It's just that, in my heart right now, I feel ...
I guess in a way, I just have to let it out, anyhow.
I lost a friend yesterday.
I've known her for more than two years. We've been lunch buddies for the whole period.
Last Tuesday I noticed she was not well. I saw her shivered and her face was pale. I did tell her to go back, go to clinic but she refused. She didn't have lunch that day, she wrote me a note that afternoon telling me she wanted to rest in surau.
She even did OT until 6pm, waiting for her husband to fetch her.

What I can still remember, she was admitted to hospital that night. And passed away the next Thursday. Everybody was so shocked because it happened so quick.

She was unconscious when we visited her. We were ready to go back to office after the visit when we received the call from her husband notifying us that according to doctor, there was no more hope for her.

So we all rushed back to ICU and we were there during her last breath, when the doctor shut down all the support machines. It felt so surreal at that time because I just talked to her 2 days before that.

But that's one thing about death. When it's time, it's time. Not even one second sooner or later.

Al-fatihah to my dear friend. May Allah bless your soul.

Tuesday, April 11, 2017

Cerita Mee Sotong

To be honest, sebelum pergi Penang last month, aku tak pernah tahu pun pasal Mee Sotong ni. 

Ceritanya, tengahari tu nak pi makan nasi kandar dan pergi Queensbay Mall. Staff kat hotel advised suruh naik GrabCar je sebab area nasi kandar tu payah nak cari parking katanya.

Bila sembang-sembang dengan semua driver GrabCar, bagitahu plan petang tu nak pergi Padang Kota, semua tanya "Nak makan mee sotong ke?"

Okay, enough of mukaddimah.

Petang tu, drive sendiri pergi Padang Kota. Mula-mula kami pergi medan selera yang menghadap laut tu, rupa-rupanya mee sotong tak ada di situ. Tapi sempatlah pekena gado-gado dulu sepinggan sebelum teruskan misi mencari.

Lepas tu menapak cuba cari Mee Sotong ni, tapi tak jumpa. Jadi kami decide patah balik ambik kereta. Dapat pulak 'surat cinta' sebab parking tak letak parking coupon. Met with another fella from JB yang katanya kereta dia kena tow. Tanya penguatkuasa kat situ rupanya parking-charging hours tu sampai pukul 12 malam. Kalau parking merata (bukan kat tempat parking), depa akan clamp/tow. Kalau parking kat tempat parking without parking coupon, kena fine lah. 

Lepas tu kami parking lagi without parking coupon sebab dah ada surat cinta kan. Finally, jumpa Mee Sotong tu dekat Esplanade Park, sebelah Fort Cornwallis. Gerai yang ada tulis "Mee Sotong" (haha, obviously)

So this is how Mee Sotong looks like:

Mee goreng + sambal sotong. Not tempting, huh? Haha. Tapi actually, sambal sotong dia tu sedaplah. Manis-manis gitu. Not bad. Harga dia (kalau tak silap) RM5.00

Okaylah nak tepek gambar, fefeling down the memory lane ngee. Both pics taken at around the same place,



Banyak dah berubah, physical and mental-wise haha.