Yaya Cheese Cake

My brother's and SIL's business.

Untuk orang-orang sekitar Kemaman dan Kuantan, sesiapa yang nak order bolehlah contact no mereka.

Aku dah rasa Oreo Cheese Cake mereka. Creamy enough dan tak memuakkan, the sweetness is just nice, the Oreo topping is generous and every other taste in it is on point. One slice is definitety not enough for me.

It comes in three sizes:

Dan untuk pengusaha kafe yang tengah mencari kek sebagai dessert di kafe anda, bolehlah juga contact mereka.

Follow their IG: @yayacheesecake

FB: yayacheesecake

Phone: 0199317659 / 0139076265

Nasi Dagang Kak Jah (Bukit Besar)

So, this is another famous Nasi Dagang in Kuala Terengganu.

Ada dua queue line - satu untuk order for take away, satu untuk makan kat situ (self-service). Tapi sebab seats agak limited, maka queue untuk take-away lebih panjang.

Masa kami pergi ada meja kosong

Kuah yang disediakan atas setiap meja sebagai tambahan

My verdict: I like this nasi dagang more.

The Standard of Beauty??

I've thought about this for some time already but I find it hard to put it into words.

Sesiapa yang sezaman dengan aku, agak-agak ingat tak di zaman remaja kita, semua orang nak kening nipis. Mana-mana ikon jelita zaman tu mesti berkening nipis dan halus (tak kisahlah semulajadi atau dicukur dan dilukis ke).

Sebab utama aku ingat ialah: kening aku tebal, maka aku terasa sungguh tak cantik masa tu, semacam sangatlah rendah diri. tapi tak adalah pergi cukur. In fact tak pernah mekap pun bahagian kening tu. Okay, tipu. Pernah, masa tunang dan kahwin, itu pun mak andamlah yang kerjakan kening aku masa tu.

Tapi tup-tup bila dah mencecah 3 series, aku perasan dah menjadi kegilaan wanita nak kening tebal pula. Tengok trend sekarang macam-macam tutorial kening nak lukis kening bagi nampak tebal pulak dah. Semua nak jeles dengan kening Elfira Loy tu. Serius aku tak faham. Kalau zaman 90’s dan 2000’s dulu memang kening macam tu orang orang takkan cakap cantik punyalah.

So, how to say it? Here we go..

Kening halus ke tebal ke, at some point, pada pandangan mata manusia, eventually, it will be 'IN TREND". It will be acceptable and even followed by many.  So the question is,  why do we have to fall victim into something that is so TEMPORARY and SEASONAL? Why do we have to adjust ourselves to suit that kind of standard? And again, like I once wrote in here, who sets the standard, anyway? 

Ada betulnya bila orang kata perempuan ni  semuanya cantik, no matter how you look. Terbukti dengan teori kening ni, cuma silapnya kita ni ikutkan sangat pandangan mata manusia yang penuh kekeliruan. Keliru dan tak perpendirian tetap. Like this trend of kening tebal yang menjadi kegilaan sekarang - 20 years ago, nobody found it beautiful. 

So, the point is really - tetaplah menjadi diri sendiri. We have to accept and love ourselves just the way we are. ( A reminder for myself first and foremost).

That’s all I have to say.

Argumentative Personality

Kadang-kadang, walaupun kita ni jenis buat hal sendiri, tak kacau orang, tak cari pasal dengan sesiapa pun, tetap ada orang tak puas hati dengan kita.

Kenapa?

Entahlah. Hanya mereka yang ada jawapan. Aku ada research jugak tentang golongan yang ada argumentative personality ni, the best way to deal with them is just walk away. 

I quote,

“You cannot reason with them, so it’s best to withdraw from an argument than try to prove them wrong”

(https://www.google.com/amp/s/healthpsychologyconsultancy.wordpress.com/2013/08/21/the-argumentative-personality/amp/)

Penat. 

Aku harap suatu hari nanti mereka pun penat dengan drama yang tak pernah berkesudahan ni.

Early Celebration - Abah's Birthday

We celebrated Abah's birthday in advanced on Friday, last week at D'Beteng Cafe, Kemaman. This cafe is well-known for its famous nasi minyak *selingan kejap*

Since Abah is not really a fan of birthday cake, maka kami order kek pulut kuning untuk abah. Thanks to all adik-adik yang sponsor kek oreo cheese (home-made) dan rendang ayam for the dinner that night.

It was a simple celebration, but I guess, all that count is the togetherness. Owh, Abah will turn 60 this 28th. How time flies. Semoga Abah dikurniakan kesihatan yang baik dan sentiasa di bawah lindungan Allah.

In Allah We Trust

We can’t do everything

but we can do our best

and have faith 

that Allah will do

the rest that we can’t do.

Life is hard

people are complicated

but Allah knows better and beyond.

Malang Yang Tak Berbau

Petang semalam dengan famili pergi berpiknik di Pantai Penunjuk, Kijal. Dalam kereta bukan main nak save bateri phone, tak bagi anak saudara main sebab nak ambik gambar banyak-banyak kat pantai nanti. Tapi rupanya tak terambik gambar pun kat sana.

Sesampai di pantai, lepas settle hampar tikar semua, kami pergilah beli makanan dekat pasar malam berdekatan. Tengah beli kerepok lekor tiba-tiba dengar ada customer lain bagitahu penjual tu yang ada budak lemas. Bila kami tengok ke arah pantai, memang nampak orang semua tengah berdiri pandang ke laut.

Rupanya ada dua orang  tengah berpaut pada batu di tengah-tengah laut. Ombak besar menyebabkan mereka tak dapat berenang balik ke pantai. 

Kakau ikut versi cerita orang kat situ, katanya yang lemas seorang, dan yang seorang lagi tu orang yang nak selamatkan dia. 

Abah ada call JPAM. Rupanya orang JPAM akan selalu call kita balik tanya update selain lokasi dan details pasal kejadian.

Masa semua orang kat pantai suspense tengok dan tunggu bomba/ambulans/JPAM sampai, nampak dua orang hamba Allah berdayung ke batu tempat mereka berpaut tu dengan sampan kecik. Kami yang tengok ni berdebar jugak sebab diorang tu tak pakai life jacket dengan keadaan ombak besar jika nak dibandingkan dengan saiz sampan tu. Salute sangat dengan keberanian diorang tu.

Aku pergi jugak dekat dengan kejadian masa diorang bawak naik mangsa tu ke pantai, tapi tak nampak sangat. Cuma nampak ada orang tengah buat CPR. Tak sangka jugak serius keadaannya  sebab masa sampan tu pergi dapatkan mereka, aku dah rasa lega sebab ingatkan dah selamat semua.

Menurut Abah, yang buat CPR tu doktor, kawan Abah. Tapi lepas tu kami dapat tahu, the boy didnt make it. Innalillah. Al-fatihah.

Ni ada link berita kejadian di Sinar Harian, cuma tak ada mention pasal sampan yang pergi ambik mangsa tu. 

http://www.sinarharian.com.my/mobile/semasa/kegembiraan-mandi-manda-di-pantai-bertukar-tragedi-1.799206

Anxiety Doesn’t Knock First

“I lied and said I was busy.

I was busy;

but not in a way most people understand.

I was busy taking deeper breaths.

I was busy silencing irrational thoughts.

I was busy calming a racing heart.

I was busy telling myself I am okay.

Sometimes, this is my busy -

and I will not apologize for it”

-b.oakman-

Something about anxiety disorder. Kadang-kadang orang tak faham dan terus cakap “ Mengada”, “Buat-buat sakit”, “Nak perhatian” blablabla.

Trust me, attention is the last thing you want when the panic attacks.

Just don’t judge if you’re not in their shoes. 

Nescafe Shake

Satu-satunya hasil Nescafe yang aku suka - Nescafe Shake.

Bila sesekali terasa nak minum ais, nilah minuman yang dicari selain teh beng. Last time I had it, the price was RM2.65. Sekarang dah RM4. Banyak betul naiknya. Lepas ni kena buat sendiri jelah kot.

Macam makin banyak benda atau makanan ‘rutin’ aku yang dah meningkat harga recently.

I Love You Not

I love you

not with every beat of my heart

I love you

not like the air I breathe

but I love you

with my mind open.

Disclaimer: All poems may be or may not be from my own experience. Some are merely from observations. Just chill, don't speculate 😝😝

Situasi

Situasi yang selalu bagi aku:

Nak jaga hati orang,
nak buat benda yang betul

Tapi pada akhirnya,
aku yang terkena.

Dan paling sedih,
macam biasa,
aku tak mampu pun
nak pertahan diri sendiri.


“Ketidakadilan”,
 kata hati


“Kebodohan”,
kata akal.

Comprehension

“The biggest communication problem is we do not listen to understand. We listen to reply”

I’ve been in this situation recently where I kept on explaining myself but people kept on misunderstanding me and then, they ‘attacked’me based on their understanding.

And funny enough, I was dragged into that situation by a misunderstanding.

So I guess, what begins with a misunderstanding ends with misunderstanding, too.

🙄 too much misunderstanding..

Seoul Garden

First time makcik try Seoul Garden ni.

Sebelum ni pernahlah pergi Korean restaurant, yang BBQ Chicken tu. Tapi makcik makan ayam goreng je kalau pergi situ. Lepas dia alter menu dia, aku adalah try bibimbap ke apa namanya tapi entahlah, tak tertelan kat tekak aku ni. Lepas tu kedai tu dah tak ada. Tak sempat nak rasa menu yang lain.

Tu dia mukadimah. 

Disebabkan makcik tak give up lagi nak ‘faham’ apa sebenarnya rasa Korean Food ni, maka ke Seoul Garden pulak. Rupanya dia ada dua section - satu Hot Pot (ala carte) dan satu lagi Buffet punya style yang RM45 per pax tu. Dekat Paradigm Mall ni dua-dua tu bersebelahan je. Dan dengan keadaan perut yang dah mula masuk angin masa tu, confirmlah tak dapat makan banyak, maka ke Hot Pot sectionlah kita.

Miso Beef

DF Mandu

Spicy Drumettes

Konklusi: Korean food is not for me. 

Not Stupid

I was upset at first
so upset I wanted to cry and cry

and cry

But right on the next instant
I’ve come around
and realized

It was not too big of a deal
it was not even something that I want
why would I cry over it
like it meant so much?

I shouldn’t be so hard on myself

It’s okay not to know

I am not stupid
I just haven’t learnt yet.




Disclaimer: All poems may be or may not be from my own experience. Some are merely from observations. Just chill, don't speculate 😝😝

Of Limitation and Intimidation

The things that I think I’ll never be good at
are  the things that I want to be good at,
the most.

I wonder,
is there really such thing as limitations?
or is it something like self-intimidation?

or perhaps
I can call it,
self-protection?

when the voices within telling me
not to try too hard
to spare myself
from the possibility of devastation.

Yes, I figured it’s nothing more
than just self-esteem;
a troubled one.



Disclaimer: All poems may be or may not be from my own experience. Some are merely from observations. Just chill, don't speculate 😝😝

Yang Kurang

Aku orang yang tak akan pernah bertanya
“Di mana kurangnya aku?”

kerana aku selalu dan terlalu sedar
bahawa aku adalah kekurangan

Dan jika aku harus bertanya,

Soalanku,
“Sudah jelikkah kamu dengan kurangnya aku?”


Disclaimer: All poems may be or may not be from my own experience. Some are merely from observations. Just chill, don't speculate 😝😝

Letting Go

I remember when I was young (dumb and broke) *okay, not funny 🙄

I was at that point of learning how to survive a heartache. As much as it hurt, I didn’t want to let go. But at some point, I got tired as it got unbearable. I told myself I have to let go but there was another problem - I didn’t know how to.

But one day, I think my prayer had been answered.

It was something like a dream. I remember being at jetty with a windmill. I don’t think that place really existed, though. So I was there, trying to pull up this one load that's been weighing me down. I tried so hard I hurt my hands and body but the load that was in the water still won’t come up.

So that was the turning point. Finally, I did what I had to do, I let go, slowly. As I watched it drifted away into the sea, I wept, knowing that I would never ever see it again. It was painful but somehow, I felt relief at the same time. A part of me was breaking, but another part was healing.

So I guess, that was my analogy of letting go. Or my method.

Later in life, every time I need to let go of something, I will bring myself back to the jetty,

And then, I let go.