Kedai mamak

Bila orang nak potraykan betapa humblenya seseorang yang kaya, maka senario clichenya adalah : Makan kat kedai mamak.

The only thing that keeps popping in my mind everytime is:

"Kedai mamak tu murah ke?"

-Perspektif golongan biasa-biasa-

..Time Doesn't Heal..

Time Doesn't Heal

There are things 

          never get better in time

As we walk through life

trying to secretly bury them

pretending it isn't there

pretending it never gets to us

But some things are never forgotten

They are locked somewhere deep inside

sunk but never forgotten

Disclaimer: All poems may be or may not be from my own experience. Some are merely from observations. Just chill, don't speculate 😝😝

..The Art of Reflection..

The art of reflection

One can look into the mirror
             and yet see nothing


For the eyes only see
what the eyes want to see


It is the art of reflection
           that not many have mastered


To look within the soul

       
Into the soul
        with a soul

Disclaimer: All poems may be or may not be from my own experience. Some are merely from observations. Just chill, don't speculate 😝😝

Of Being the Realist

This was what crosssed my mind.

So I'm scribbling (typing) it in here.

Back in the days where there was no smartphones and social medias, people were more real. More genuine to themselves.

For instance, you wouldn't find a girl faking her passion towards hiking back then. It was simple. If a girl loves adventure, she'd be outdoor doing the adventurous stuffs. Just because she loves it.

Mostly people would choose to do things they love. There was no medium to show the world something that they're not.

But nowadays, most of us do it for the sake of uploading the pictures to social medias. It's not about the experience anymore. It's not about appreciating the moments anymore. It's all about what we want to portray in the social medias. To keep up with the hype.

I am actually reminding myself. Not to fall victim to this trend.

I wish to be more present in the present.

That's all.

What-If

I have tonnes of regrets

Some are bearable

              some are not

Life becomes a struggle 

           to make the unbearable bearable

Until I tell myself

What's not meant to be

is not meant to be

There's no point wondering

          "What if?"

Disclaimer: All poems may be or may not be from my own experience. Some are merely from observations. Just chill, don't speculate 😝😝

We Didn't Fall In Love

Untuk para pencinta yang tak mengenal rupa.



We didn't fall in love at the first sight
                   Not even at second
                                              or third


We didn't fall in love when we were together
            It was distance that brought us closer


There were unutterable feelings 
        when we bid farewell
the moment we thought we'd never see each other again


That was when we knew.



Disclaimer: All poems may be or may not be from my own experience. Some are merely from observations. Just chill, don't speculate.

The World Today

Humanity will soon become just a word in dictionary.

That no one looks for the meaning anymore.

What's happening to the world today is totally devastating.

Is there no more hope for human race at all?

😭

The Most Certain Event

D.E.A.T.H.

Nothing is more certain than this.

Heard too many sad news recently from my dear friends who had lost their fathers and mothers.

I hope they're coping well with the lossand I hope Allah give them all the strength they need.

Al-fatihah. May Allah bless their soul.

Memories

One thing about getting old is that we forget things.

Some memories are no longer recall-able, no matter how hard we try to.

Some are lost in the broken hard drive.

Some drifted away in the flood.

Some are burnt and thrown.

All we have to do is deal with it.

That nothing lasts forever.

Not even our memories.

The Stolen Voice (Final Cut)

THE STOLEN VOICE

I believed it when you told me

        to shut up

That my words were worthless

I believed that without my voice 

      is just what your world needs

So I shut my mouth ever since

Even on the noisiest arguments 

     of the voices in my mind 

I shut my mouth still

I had lost my voice

Because I believed you

And I hope you're happy

             (without it)

Disclaimer: All poems may be or may not be from my own experience. Some are merely from observations. Just chill, don't speculate.

Miracles from Heaven

"Miracles are everywhere.

Miracles are goodness sometimes showing up in the strangest of ways through people who are just passing through our lives."

-Miracles from Heaven-

The Stolen Voice

I believed it when you told me
          to shut up
that my words were worthless

I believed that without my voice 
        your world would've been much better 

So I shut my mouth 
                 ever since

I believed you
And I hope you're happy.

(**this is still a raw draft**)

Disclaimer: All poems may be or may not be from my own experience. Some are merely from observations. Just chill, don't speculate 😝😝

..Of Parading Happiness..

The thing about parading your happiness around the social media is the effect it has to the people you choose to EXCLUDE out of that happiness.

Especially when the people are the ones who loves you unconditionally but you're too blind/stupid to see it.

But mostly their love is so UNCONDITIONAL they'll choose to avoid the drama no matter how deeply hurt they are.

They'll choose to just feel happy for you although they're not a part of it.

Unintended

What i love the most about Muse is the lyrics (besides the suara tarik-nafas haha)

Come across this old song masa belek-belek YouTube jadi repeat 88 kali.


"You could be my unintended
Choice to live my life extended
You could be the one I'll always love
You could be the one who listens
To my deepest inquisitions
You could be the one I'll always love

I'll be there as soon as I can
But I'm busy mending broken
Pieces of the life I had before

First there was the one who challenged
All my dreams and all my balance
She could never be as good as you
You could be my unintended
Choice to live my life extended
You should be the one I'll always love

I'll be there as soon as I can
But I'm busy mending broken
Pieces of the life I had before

I'll be there as soon as I can
But I'm busy mending broken
Pieces of the life I had before

Before you"

Time Travel

How do you go back in time?

The answer?

YOU CAN'T.

Jodoh

I've been thinking about this dah lama. Dari zaman bujang-bujang dulu lagi. Eheh.

Masa zaman tu yang kecoh pasal Mawi Ekin dan ex-tunang Mawi. Bukanlah aku fikirkan pasal mereka ni cumanya situasi mereka tu yang buat aku confused pasal jodoh.

Sebab orang kata janganlah salahkan Ekin, dah tak ada jodoh Mawi dengan ex-tunangnya. So the confusing part is: is it okay to break someone's heart using that reason? Tak ada jodoh?  So you could just find someone more attractive and leave the one you're currently with?

Banyak lagi contoh terdekat but let's not list them all.

I think it's so wrong to use the jodoh reason to dumb the person you're with to be with someone else. Kau yang gatal tapi salahkan takdir?

But now I've found the answer (eheh macam eksperimen cinta pulak).

The thing is dalam Islam bercouple tu salah. So in the first place, you shouldn't date anybody. And if you don't date anybody you won't be breaking anyone's heart. You'll get married to your jodoh eventually without you having to dumb anyone before that.

Yup, that makes sense.

So to the 'players' out there, don't play the jodoh card anymore. If you believe in jodoh so much you won't be dating anyone before you're married.

Period.

The Circle

EAST ➡ WEST ➡ NORTH ➡ SOUTH ➡ WEST.

Hopefully the next is back to EAST for good to round it up.

Amin.

The End of Brangelina

Been scrolling FB newsfeed last night and news about their break-up was all over the wall.

So I guess it's just about time. Finally the most gorgeous couple (or should I say sexy couple) on earth is untying the knot.

I used to write about my favorite Hollywood's A-list couple back in 2010. And guess what? They're all divorced now.

http://mygoldpen.blogspot.my/2010/11/break-up.html

Okay, enough gossiping .

Till later.

That feeling..

I haven't been feeling like this since 10 years ago - it was when I moved to JB. It's so uneasy, so indescribable.

I remember crying in my room the first week after moving to JB.  Been away from home since I was 13 didn't ease the process. 

Last cuti raya my parents and me were reminiscing the story of my registration day in high school back in 1995 (feel free to do the maths, yeah, I know I'm old 😝).

When it was time for my family to go back to Kemaman, my mom cried. But I didn't. Not that I didn't feel sad. I remember perfectly how I felt at that time. I was scared, sad and felt like all of that was so surreal.

I felt like chasing and hopping in the car to go back to Kemaman with them at the moment.

Upon seeing me not shedding any tears, my mom told me that I'm such a strong-hearted person. I'm not sure about that because the thing is, I don't cry in front of others or with others. I always choose to cry alone.

Things got easier when I got into college and uni. It was approximately 10 hours journey of Kemaman - Penang, but Alhamdulillah I managed to be fine.

But today the feeling hit me back. The only difference is that I don't cry anymore. And this time, I'm old enough to understand that life is like this. There'll be a little twist and turn along the way. The only thing we can do is to move on.

The most important thing is to have faith that Allah's plan is the best.

Romantic #3

If your man helps you hang the clothes outside to air-dry them.

Because he understands that you have to put on some decent cloth and tudung if you're to hang the clothes.

The fact that he cares about that.

That's romantic.

Walking on Eggshells

English education from Mak Limah for today..

Idiom: Walking on eggshells.

Meaning: To be overly careful in dealing with a person or situation because they get angry or offended very easily; TO TRY VERY HARD NOT TO UPSET someone or something.

.....

On a personal note, I guess the eggshells have been living with the perks of being an eggshell since forever so they might not be able to realize the pain they have caused to the people around them.

Lucky (or unlucky) them.

Romantic #2

Things that are non-material.

Belikan coklat, bagi bunga, hadiah mahal and whatnot.

It's totally not wrong, it's just less romantic.

Especially if he can afford it, then what's so romantic about it?

PM culture

Makcik is on membebel mode again.

Tak paham sungguh dengan generasi zaman sekarang.

Sedangkan kalau kita nak beli baju online pun, kalau kita duk komen "PM" seller tak layan. (Ok, biasanya seller yang dah established lah kan 😝).. Itu kalau kita nak bagi duit kat orang.  Inikan pulak awak yang nak MINTAK kerja?  I mean, you must really have the nerve suruh orang PM awak untuk bagi kerja kat awak?

Makcik rasa "wow" sangat tengok budaya macam ni. 

Bila government nak bawak masuk foreigner ramai-ramai semua nak menggelupur. And some even talk about job opportunities LOL. Once in a while maybe we should stop complaining -  because in the first place, we did it to ourselves what we thought others did to ourselves.

Make sense?

Denial denial denial

You know you're in denial when you insist on being addressed as Cik Ngah instead of Mak Ngah by the nephews.

Cik Ngah by all means sounds younger than Mak Ngah.

Haha. Dilema makcik 'muda'.

Online shopping #bukantips

Sekarang semua butik dah nak start jual baju dengan harga RM200+ 

Macam ni makcik terpaksalah tunggu balance-balance yang tak laku masa stock clearance sale jela lepas ni.

Tu pun kalau ada saiz lagi.

OK bai.

Peaceful Mind - Tips #1

I figured one of the key towards a peaceful mind is "Selflessness".

When our world does not only resolve around ourselves, that's when we acquire peaceful mind.

Really, to only think of our own self is such a neverending work. We'll never get satisfied, we'll always be restless.

Try making someone else smile today just because.

"Because in the end, only kindness matters"

The thing we take for granted

I'm down with fever.

Time macam ni barulah tersedar selalu take for granted nikmat sihat tubuh badan yang Allah bagi.

Barulah sedar nikmatnya selera makan. Nikmat tidur lena.

Semoga Allah berikan kesembuhan dan semoga tak lalai lagi lepas ni.

Online shopping tips #1

Ni untuk orang yang tak up-to-date sangat (like me).

Sebelum beli any clothing online, make sure tengok #ootd dulu. Sebabnya ada beza model dengan orang bukan model pakai. Model pakai mestilah cantik selalu. Jadi untuk elakkan 'tertipu' kenalah rajin-rajin belek Instagram.

Tapi kalau jenis yang up-to-date yang keluar je design baru mesti dia nak jadi orang pertama pakai maka tips ini tidak valid untuk ada.

It's the thought that should be counted (Part II)

Okay, tak habis lagi bebel. Nak bebel puas-puas so that lepas ni boleh move on.

Kadang kita ni bukannya ada sangat untuk memberi. Tapi sebab ada rasa nak gembirakan orang, maka apa yang ada kita korbankan.

Tapi bila orang cakap "Tak berkenan" I was like - "Wow!" Sedih sebenarnya.

So as a reminder to myself as well, if you have nothing nice to say, just don’t say anything at all.

Okay, dah boleh move on. Hehe.

It's the thought that should be counted.

How heartless can people be to make fun of others' gift to them when it's not really right to their liking.

I mean, you don't know how much effort and thought people has put into it - and for you to just laugh it out is DISRESPECTFUL.

Even if you don't like it at least appreciate the effort and thought.

The other side of everybody.

Susah senang hanya kita yang tahu. Hanya pada Allah tempat mengadu.

Tak perlu canang seluruh dunia peritnya kehidupan. Tak semua akan faham apatah lagi membantu.

Mungkin di mata orang yang nampak hanya kisah senyuman. Bukanlah kerana hidup tiada duka. Tapi hakikat yang pahit disimpan rapi untuk tatapan sendiri sahaja.

Semoga kita tidak jadi insan yang mudah menghukum.

Yang mengandai-andai.

Yang ambil kesempatan.

What it actually means to me

Hari Raya is those days that I need to pretend as much as I could.

To wear the best mask that I have.

To smile and just lock everything inside.

To jaga hati everyone else but me.

That's Hari Raya to me.

Romantic #1

I think one of the romantic thing a husband can do is to regard his father in law as his own father.

As in randomly talk about his FIL in general conversation like "Kalau bawak abah datang sini mesti abah suka".

It's romantic.

Relationship goal

Makcik tak berapa nak faham relationship goal ni apa.

Baru ni nampak kat FB pasal artis Instagram yang buat birthday surprise tu.

Is that a relationship goal, adik-adik? 

If one thing I learn about a relationship is that - if your man doesn't love you the way you want him to, that doesn't mean he doesn't love you.

Tu je makcik nak bebel malam ni.

#relationshipgoal <-- hahaha tak nak kalah okay?

Of The Drafted Thoughts

Was browsing my old draft items in this blog.

(And to my surprise, some of it was as old as 2011...adoii.)

There were many completed entries unposted.

Even though they maybe ancient history, I think I should start posting them as #throwback? Hehe.

The Card and The Mask

Everybody thinks they're the good guy.

So they play the victim card.

And it is like having the luxury to hurt others, reverse-phsychologically.

They forget that at times they are actually the predator.

The monster.

With a mask of innocence.

Tak faham.

Aku selalu tak faham kenapa.

Kenapa kebanyakan mereka akan cari jugak point untuk highlight kekurangan kita.  Lagi-lagi selepas dikoreknya kelebihan kita.

Kes aku.  Tak ada anak.  Maka itulah yang disebut-sebut orang.

1.  "Oo yang dah lama kahwin tapi belum ada anak tu ye?  Haa..ingat-ingat"
2. "Belum ada anak boleh lah pergi jalan-jalan"
3. Kadang bila ditanya apa kerja kita dan suami, dah dapat jawapan dia menambah pulak "Hmm..Ada orang Allah bagi rezeki lain, tak bagi rezeki anak" Eh, eh.
4. "Tak ada anak bolehlah pakai baju kembang"
5. "Tak ada anak bolehlah belit-belit tudung"

Dan bermacam-macam lagi lah. 

Tak pelah. Senyum jela.

Dan nangis dalam hati.

Rezeki

Kadang-kadang bila promote my business items dekat  personal fb or ig, rasa down memang tak boleh cakapla..

The likes normally less than 10 likes.

Biasa yang like tu dari kalangan famili (terima kasih semua keluarga..I love you all so very much).  And adalah a few from kawan-kawan yang juga sangat-sangat supportive. 

Mulalah terdetik dalam hati "Ada ke orang nak beli barang yang aku jual ni"

Tapi cepat-cepat positifkan diri.  Yang rezeki Allah tu luas sangat-sangat.  Kena yakin.  And paling penting jangan give up.  Jangan putus doa.

Alhamdulillah.  Lepas tu tiba-tiba ada sister from Singapore order sekali 13 helai shawl.  And another sister from Oman order 14 pcs. 

Rasa macam nak menangis  sebab tak pernah terfikir nak dapat customer from outside Malaysia *okay, emo, I know.. But it's true. 

So what I'm saying is that rezeki Allah sangat luas. Tak dapat customer from Malaysia, tak pe.  Ada lagi satu dunia boleh jadi potential customer.  Bersangka baik dengan Allah.  Jangan putus asa untuk terus mintak dari Dia.  Mintak dan terus mintak.

I am just still a very beginner and I have lots to go through and to learn.

I'll toughen up InsyaAllah.. In Allah I believe.

My dear Mocha

Story 1

He is an indoor cat and we got him spayed so that made him unable to fight other cat.

I was not at home when it happened.  A strayed cat got in my in-laws' house and he got involved in a fight.

He was shaking in shocked when I got home.  And was fierce and tried to bite to everyone who tried to touch him.  I sat near him and he slowly crawled to me. 

I was touched that he found his comfort in me..sobs..

Story 2

He does not really like children.  Every time there are children around, he will hide.

One day our cousin's son tried to play with him.  He started to feel intimidate and started biting.  I tried to calm him down by gently rubbing his head.  And the kid tried to do so, too.  Mocha's quick reaction was to bite the kids fingers but unfortunately my hand was closer to his aim.

But in a second he stopped when he realised that was actually my hand.

I was touched that he stopped himself from biting me despite his quick reaction.

I love you, too, Mocha.

Hopeful

Bismillah.

Now I am training myself to be positive which is not easy. (Hah, negativity spotted!!)


It's about time that I'm realising it now that I am pretty much a negative person.  Well, that has to change.  NOW.

Let us all have a positive day and life ahead.

If people complain, instead of being defensive, I should find room to improve.
If people being rude, well, there are others who are nice, polite and considerate.  I'll focus on those nice people and just ignore the rude ones.

InsyaAllah - towards a better human being.

Pot and kettle..

When someone (on her/his own social media medium) calls someone else 'keyboard warrior' - doesn't that make her/him one too?

That's another pot calling the kettle black, I guess.

Chill people, chill...

Or whatever.

@accesories.essentials

Today I created one new instagram account for my small side business of accessories and clothing for women.

I hope this will be a beginning for a new adventure.  I will put my heart and soul into this, InsyaAllah..

Come "visit my ig" ehehehe..

Okay I'm old..

Bila tengok trend budak-budak sekarang kat media social yang macam hipster ke fashionista or whatever it is (pose yang wajib adalah dengan handbag dan pandang bawah)...

What came to my mind coming across these pictures:

1. Who took their pictures with such poses like that like all the time?

2. They sure have lots and lots of clothes and handbags and shoes, etc etc...

Okay.  Maafkan makcik.  Makcik tak condemn.. Some of the pictures are really really cool.

It's just that I don't get it.  Especially my number 1 question.

Spaying Marble - Part I (Intro)

I so happen to own a very out-going cat.  Marble, that is.

We got her spayed on 27th December 2015.

Putting E-collar is totally not a good idea.  In case you've been wondering what's E-collar is, yeah, you can Google it.  The idea is not to let her lick the incision site to avoid infection.

The first day after the surgery, we (by we, I mean Mr. Husband, eheh) tried to put it on Marble.  And yep, it lasted less than 2 minutes.  She struggled and somehow managed to 'escape' out of the collar.

Sigh..sigh..sigh..

And we tried to cage her which was another disaster.

She wouldn't rilex at all, trying with all her might to squeeze out of the cage.  She didn't really sleep.

She even managed to actually get out of the cage that first night after the surgery.  My bad - I didn't lock it properly.

The next day, after seeing her so suffered and miserable in the cage, we decided to let her out.  Yeah, stupid, I know, I know..

So the consequences - on the 5th day, although the wound looked fine, but there was a swollen and redness part around the incision site.  I panicked a bit and we straightaway went to the vet.

Unfortunately, Marble needed to undergo a second surgery.  Letting her out of the cage was indeed a bad, bad idea given her hyperactive and outgoing personality.  She went up and down the stairs, running and jumping around which were prohibited for cats after spaying. 

According to the vet, due to her unlimited activities there had been some complication.  But lucky enough we brought her to the vet as soon as possible so it was not yet an emergency case.

Poor Marble...

Okay.  To be continued...