..the day i lost my temper..

i still remember this was the SPM English paper question for essay part and i did choose this question.

but i'm not going to write about that. just macam related.

i don't quite sure what is it with me today. i had always wanted to be outspoken, ruthless, someone who can just say anything to people's face - without feeling any guilt. because to me by being somebody like that - things are a lot easier when people are afraid of you.

but i forget one thing that this kind of person don't gain a lot of RESPECT. *huhu mukaddimah..

went to Maxis Centre at Danga Bay this morning. entahlah kenapa i rasa macam annoyed sangat dengan this one customer service consultant. normally, i just let my Hubby does all the talking or to be exact - complaining. long story short, sebab dah extremely annoyed by that girl yang macam lebih kurang je entertain kitorang, i pergi marah-marah dia. fuh, rasa macam darah menyerbu ke muka, menggigil-gigil - that kind of marah. it was so out of control and i so hate myself once i come to my senses.

and why did i write this? because i feel so guilty i couldnt get it out of my head. i know i always wanted to do that but when i did, i just feel bad.

i guess i'm just happy being myself - the cool one. ok, not quite right to put it that way. i mean, being always under temper-control.

besides, i never liked it everytime i saw people so easily marah-marah so why would i want to become one?

i'll stop wishing that one day i'll become outspoken, ruthless, someone who can just say anything to people's face - without feeling any guilt.